Goldenpearl

Nightmare. Deep Blue.

2009-09-06T14:35:00.009+02:00

I felt so much stronger when you were around. You were the reason I kept my feet steady on the ground. I closed my eyes and counted to five. My skin started to shiver as I took a deep breath and decided to dive.

My body fell weightless from the steep cliff and was crushed when it fell into the cold. My body sank deep, heavy like a stone and I felt new scars on my skin that made me look old. The water poured into my lungs and made it hard to breath. I could feel how my heart's rhythm slowly faded away, beat by beat.

It felt like I had lost it all. I screamed, with horror echoing inside my mind and woke up starring at the opposite white wall. A horrifying nightmare which always leave me in tears. I call it Deep Blue. A reminder for one of my greatest fears.

Håkan Hellström - Jag ger Dig min morgon.

2009-09-04T07:07:00.006+02:00

The weeks just seem to be flying by and so it's Friday again. Lovely! No classes today so I'll be working between 10 AM and 3 PM.

I managed to end a little earlier today because V and I are going to see the Swedish musician Håkan Hellström tonight at the amusement park called Gröna Lund in Stockholm.

I'm really looking forward for tonight and for those of you who haven't heard any of his music I've posted one of his best cover songs above, so enjoy and listen. Still I must say that most of his songs are in Swedish but you can still listen to the lovely melody and maybe just maybe understand some parts ;)

Have a great Friday everybody!

Wet Wednesday.

2009-09-02T08:28:00.005+02:00

What a wonderful morning I've had so far, waking up to the sound of raindrops smashing towards my bedroom window and listening to soft music while eating breakfast. Perfect way to start a new day. Even though it will probably be a "wet Wednesday"..

My plan is to keep up this pace and tidy up the apartment a bit and maybe if I've got time I'll bake something before meeting up with L in town.

It's good to have a free day like this in the middle of the week, to stop and relax and just enjoy the day the way one usually don't have time with during work/school/studies/cooking etc.

Anyway I hope you will also have a great morning/afternoon too! Take care and I promise I'll write more soon :)

Carpe Diem - Seize the Day.

2009-08-29T18:19:00.005+02:00

Picture: DeviantArt

Through life today and beyond tomorrow certain visions around us may never change. Family members within a family and special bonds between friends will never break and remain steady like the back of a mountain range.

How much time we have together will never be spoken. Sadly a young heart has yet one more time been broken.

Here is a small reminder for you, take good care of your beloved ones. If you have children, take care of your daughters and/or your sons.

Promise yourself that you will never take anyone for granted. A precious angel has finally landed.

Do not put up things for tomorrow, expecting that you will have time to experience it then. Live life today and not tomorrow who knows when it might end, nobody said when?

Let love find you and guide you on your way. This is all I needed to say. Keep it real.

Talking about a great Friday Feeling.

2009-08-28T07:07:00.006+02:00

Good morning! Even though I had difficulties sleeping last night after a delicious breakfast I'm loaded with enthusiasm over the fact that it's Friday! (Meaning no classes but work)

Anyway like I wrote I don't start working until 1 PM so my plans for this morning is to tidy up the apartment and if I've got time I'll go to town to buy some new flowers - my latest passion is the Phalaenopsis orchid - a true beauty.

I never thought I'd say this but maybe I'm getting green fingers now from all the sudden interest in flowers? Haha. Time to get rolling.. Have a great day/evening everybody!

Autumn ´09. New chapter. New life. New hairstyle!

2009-08-27T09:24:00.008+02:00

Pictures: Sorry for the bad pictures but I had to take them with my iPhone. Perhaps I should get a Camera as a Christmas gift to myself?

P.S. I cut off 20 cm of my hair..! Which makes it a huge difference at least I do feel the difference! ^^ D.S.

TGIF.

2009-08-21T22:00:00.005+02:00

Another week is going towards it's end, amazing how fast time flies. Luckily I've got another day off tomorrow to rest and read but I've got to work again on Sunday.

Our store is full of brand new autumn clothes and it's starting to look really good now that all our sales items are gone.

Anyway time to get back to the couch and just enjoy the rest of the evening! Have a great day/night depending on what time it is at your place :)

It caught me again.

2009-08-20T10:33:00.005+02:00

Picture: Google

It's been a while since I had it but this is my confession, it caught me again. I'm talking about the fall/winter cold.

I was just looking down from my bed this morning and it almost looked like the man's office on the picture above, not as many of course but I've got my own little pile of toilet paper. It's awful really, I hate being sick. The lack of positive energy seems to have disappeared from my body.

I simply had to stay home this morning but I will have to show up at work in the afternoon. The sun appears to be shining outdoors, maybe I'll step out for a walk to charge my batteries.

Anyway I wish you all a beautiful Thursday and remember it's not summer anymore so keep the jacket on! Otherwise you'll end up like me and the poor fellow on the picture. Later!

Falling Star.

2009-08-16T16:30:00.005+02:00

You looked me deep into the eyes and asked me what was wrong. I kept my eyes focused on his angelic and anxious eyes, wishing I had never recorded the song. I knew what was coming. It felt as if I had known it all winter not to mention all spring.

My hands started shaking in a response to the walls that were falling apart deep inside of me. The tsunami that soon would appear behind the thin veil of my blue eyes and that would humiliate me.

I was at the edge of a inner collapse when he suddenly caught my hands and said, with what to me was a sudden calm, to trust him. Of all people I knew he was the only one to understand and that is one of the reasons for why my heart had fallen for him.

Times were difficult and my deepest fear was to loose it. The special chemistry, the laughter, the music and many other things we had in common. Good or bad I would miss every part of it. I couldn't and didn't say a word throughout the entire evening. At the same time I think we both knew what I was feeling.

Never had a bond been so strong between two people. He could never upset me neither make me purple. As time passed us by clouds had dissapeared and left an endless black sky. In his company I never had a reason to feel shy.

Suddenly our attention was caught by a stream of light that appeared on the sky. It was a sign, a falling star.

Sunny Sunday.

2009-08-16T13:08:00.009+02:00

Picture: Taken by my uncle when my mother and I went to Barcelona this spring. I really miss my family and the cool city! (Click on the picture for a larger and improved view!)

After spending almost five hours last night babysitting 7 kids (!) at a 40 year old birthday party I managed to sleep far too many hours this morning. Exhausted as I was when I came home I'm not surprised that I managed to sleep for so long.

Anyway today is the last day of vacation since I've got new classes that will begin tomorrow morning. It's amazing how fast the summers keep on passing us by. I remember how I used to think that the summer vacation always felt so long but as I 've gotten older I've realized that my dad was right when he told me that for every year we grow time seems to catch up on us.

Got to run, time for lunch, I'll write more later :)

Day off.

2009-08-13T18:16:00.003+02:00

I'm officially back in Stockholm! I loved the festival up in Östersund but it's good to be home again. Unfortunately I didn't have a good camera to take pictures of the different artists as I promised so I'll try to look up some from the Internet later!

Anyway as I wrote I'm back, back to reality, back to work and catch up with my mentality. So I had a day off from work today - yay!

For once I had time to do boring stuff such as sleep, do the laundry etc. which believe it or not felt nice! Haha am I becoming a housewife? Atleast not a desperate one.. Time for a shower, I'll be back soon!

Sahara Hotnights - Visit to Vienna.

2009-07-30T17:45:00.006+02:00

Sahara Hotnights live tonight! :) I'm so excited!

Festival.

2009-07-30T12:48:00.006+02:00

Hey there! Sorry for the extremely bad updates on the blog but as I've written before I've been busy working 6-7 days per week which doesn't leave that much time to write here like I did before. But I'm back now :) And believe me this time I will try to write more than I've done these last months.

Anyway right now I'm sitting in V's mothers appartment in Östersund. We flew up Monday this week and we're staying until Monday next week.

We're here to attend the festival called "Storsjöyran" which has been held here in Östersund every summer since 1963. All in all we're going to see great artists such as; Lady Gaga, Sahara Hotnights, Takida, Dead by April, Veronica Maggio, Frida Hyvönen and more.

First up tonight is Sahara Hotnights, Takida and Anna Ternheim. Time for lunch now but I'll be back with pictures later!

Last weekend.

2009-06-02T09:45:00.008+02:00

Picture: Collage made by me

With only two days left to my brother's graduation I honestly can't feel more exited than I am right now! I've been busy like a little bee trying to combine both work, help my mom to clean and arrange things for the party and celebrate V who had his birthday last Friday (which is when the picture is taken btw). Happy Birthday again, love.

Anyway I figured I'd say hi and let you guys know that I'm still alive.. :) Things will probably become much more relaxed after the party on Thursday meaning more time to blog ^^. I wish you all a great week!

My Wednesday.

2009-05-27T09:28:00.002+02:00

Mood: Positive
Done: Breakfast (check), shower up next
Plans: Work and watch a football game with V at my place
Looking at: V's screen
Listening to: Milow - Technology
Reading: Nothing at the moment
Drinking: Milk
Eating: Nothing at the moment
Best: V's birthday on Friday ♥
Worst: Too many things to do for next week :S
Weather: Warm and hopefully sunny

Inspiration: Walls.

2009-05-27T08:50:00.016+02:00

Pictures: My first room

V and I have planned a trip (or I think there actually might be two trips..?) to IKEA. I have so many different ideas to the apartment and the pictures above illustrates one of them. I thought of buying paintings to put up on the walls and yes we might have a few smaller ones but when I saw this I thought this idea of printing "words" on the walls was a much cooler idea and unique.

So the pictures above are just a few examples of words full of wisdom in English, Latin and Swedish. I love them all but I think we would only put up one or perhaps two phrases on our walls. Which one do is your favorite among these? :)

You had me at hello.

2009-05-25T12:55:00.009+02:00

Picture: DeviantArt

Happy anniversary baby! It's been two wonderful months with you and I'm looking forward to the upcoming days, weeks, months, years ! :) I love you more than anything, you are my lover, soulmate and best friend ♥

U2 - With or Without You.

2009-05-25T12:32:00.004+02:00

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you

Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you
With or without you

Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

My hands are tied
My body bruised, shes got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you
With or without you

Girl's Night Out!

2009-05-20T18:03:00.004+02:00

Picture: Me in V's bathroom

This is what I'm wearing tonight along with my black skirt and black leather jacket :) Unfortunately I can't write more now but I promise I'll give you an update tomorrow! Have a great day/evening!

Busy lady.

2009-05-19T08:02:00.007+02:00

Tomorrow (Wednesday) is the last day of classes (finally!). I got my new work schedule for the summer and it seems as if I've got a few periods we're I'll be working 6 out of 7 days per week. Guess I'll be a very busy lady during those weeks.

Anyway about the apartment everything is going great! Last weekend we (V, my dad and I) spent the entire Saturday painting both the living room and master bedroom - both rooms turned out white instead of mint green and it looks bigger and so clean.

The white sofa is standing on its place in the living room along with the furniture for the tv and V's new glass desk. In the master bedroom we've placed my new desk but no bed yet. We're still looking for the "right one".

Yesterday I came across two white and beige star printed blankets which would look perfect on the sofa so next week when I'll get my salary I'll buy them :).

I better go and get ready, I've got a few errands that I need to do at the pharmacy - yes I just don't seem to get rid of this cold. Anyway I wish you all a great Tuesday!

Min V.

2009-05-16T23:04:00.009+02:00

Min pojkvän....

Han luktar alltid gott.
Han sjunger med i låtar när han är på bra humör.
Han tycker att höjden av humor är myggan.
Han har ett litet ärr vid vänster bröst, its very sexy and I love it.
Han kysser mig över hela kroppen när helst han känner för det.
Han kommer bra överrens med mina vänner.
Han tittar på program som "Så ska det låta".
Han kommer bra överens med mina bröder.
Han hör av sig minst 5 gånger per dag (sms/samtal).
Han har världens underbaraste ögon.
Han kallar mig sin ängel.
Han är det finaste jag vet.

Och för det älskar jag honom. Älskar - på riktigt ♥

Sorry for my absence.

2009-05-15T17:42:00.004+02:00

The weeks are going so fast! I'm sorry for my absence but I've been so busy with my studies, work and preparing the apartment I'm moving in to.

Tomorrow I'll be spending the entire day painting with my dad, V, E might drop by as well and we'll see if more people decide to show up and help us! :) It will be fun I think.

But right now I'm standing at the shop and the entire mall seems to be empty - on a Friday? Well it might be due to the beautiful weather outdoors. Anyway during lonely days like these I'm happy to be able to have a computer nearby and just surf the Internet ;)

Summer is almost here and my classes end next Wednesday (did I hear someone say yaaaay!) haha. Well to be honest it's going to be nice to only focus on work and the apartment - we've got so many things to do but I'm sure that the result will be great! Pictures might come up later.. ;)

Happy Birthday!

2009-05-11T10:18:00.006+02:00

Picture: Collage made by me

When I'm down you're always there to cheer me up. When no else's got time you're always there to listen. I love you E, you're such a good brother and person! Keep it that way :) Happy Birthday, I wish you all the best ♥

Bekännelser från ett lyckligt hjärta.

2009-05-11T08:58:00.006+02:00

Din närhet värmer mig när kylan gör sig påmind om natten. I din famn är jag trygg som en båt i det lugnaste vatten.

Du ligger bredvid mig när dagen gryr. När du håller min hand i din sprids en obeskrivlig lycka och det går inte att undvika att jag blir lite yr.

Du skapar ett lyckorus som sprids igenom hela kroppen. Du är min högra hand, min andra halva, mitt hjärta, bästa vän och du får mig alltid att må toppen.

I dina ögon finner jag tröst när livet känns svårt. Du skyddar mitt hjärta som om det var ditt, du ger styrka när jag är svag och likt en örn du vakar över allt som är vårt.

Du är det bästa som hänt mig. Jag älskar Dig.

Looks like it's going to rain today.

2009-05-08T07:55:00.009+02:00

Picture: Linn

Mood: A bit tired but TGIF!
Done: Breakfast (check)
Plans: Classes in the morning, meeting after lunch and work in the afternoon
Looking at: V's screen
Listening to: Nothing at the moment
Reading: Nothing at the moment
Drinking: Orange juice
Eating: Just finished breakfast
Best: Looking forward to the weekend
Worst: The big pile of things I need to do for next week
Weather: Looks like it's going to rain today?

Oh and about the nailpolish (!) it's the best. I'm wearing it now á la French manicure :)

Words that will forever stay the same.

2009-05-05T14:26:00.010+02:00

The thought has crossed my mind before. Still I can't seem to forget about my fear of needles and the fact that it will hurt really bad.

I'm talking about creating a tattoo somewhere on my body. A short sentence of great importance to me that's what it's going to be. Somehow V almost convinced me now, to do it this summer.

But like I said I don't know what to write yet so I won't do it until I have it all figured out. He's got three beautiful stars in a row on one of his arms but like I said I'm thinking about writing a special quote or a few words of wisdom.

I'll get back to you when I've got some ideas.

Forever.

2009-05-05T10:20:00.008+02:00

Pictures: Rightnow
Stronger and more beautiful than ever. True Love lasts forever.

Stay.

2009-05-05T09:35:00.004+02:00

You were gone long before daylight. You left me confused and my heart told me not to put up a fight.

With one eye on the clock and one on the phone I waited for you to call. That's when I got your text saying nothing important and so my eyes left the phone and continued staring at your white wall.

All I ask for is your honesty and for you to trust me. For I believe in you and I believe in us, can't you see?

Please tell me if we're moving on too fast. Please tell me if you don't believe that our love will last.

I mean every word when I say I love you with every piece of my heart. If it was up to me we would never spend a minute apart.

All I ask of you is to hold me tonight. Stay with me until the morning light. Just promise me that you will stay throughout the night.

My dream was to become a pilot.

2009-04-29T07:01:00.007+02:00

Picture: Ray-Ban

I've been looking for the perfect sunglasses to wear now that summer has finally arrived! Like the title learns I've always been weak for hot pilot glasses á la Ray-Ban. So if I know myself I'm going to end up with either one of the two above or another similar one.

The only problem is that I don't want to pay a fortune for a pair of glasses that I might drop, loose or sit on. Haha did I say that I can be really clumsy sometimes? :)

Anyway I guess I'll keep on searching and I promise to let you know when I've found the perfect pair! Later guys!

Moving out.

2009-04-28T08:54:00.005+02:00

Finally! After months of searching I've finally found the most beautiful and charming apartment with several open windows and big open spaces!

It's two rooms (1 living room + master bedroom) and the best part is the huge amount of closets for storage! Which means I can bring most of my things :)

It's located in the same neighborhood that I'm living in now so I won't have far home and besides I'll be neighbor with one of my best friends E! Or almost anyway we'll only have 1 or 2 minutes walking distance which is almost too good to be true.

So I'm moving out from my parent's house sometime in June I think after my brother's graduation and hopefully I'll be able to arrange some kind of party for my closest friends :)

Anyway time to take a shower! Have a great day!

Sunshine makes me real.

2009-04-27T21:40:00.009+02:00

Picture: Private - Me

and sunsets makes me feel..
P.S. This is my 1100th post! :) D.S.

Sunny Sunday.

2009-04-26T12:38:00.005+02:00

It's a beautiful day today. The sun is shining and not a single cloud on the blue sky. Unfortunately I've got to work.. :(

Hopefully there'll be some more sun next week as well, I'll catch up with it then. Anyway got to go now but don't worry I promise you'll hear from me very soon ;) Have a great day!

Wonderful Wednesday.

2009-04-22T10:14:00.004+02:00

Mood: Nothing but smiles
Done: Breakfast (check), shower up next
Plans: Study, meet up with L & bake at V's place :)
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: Salem Al Fakir - Astronaut
Reading: Nothing at the moment
Drinking: Water
Eating: Nothing at the moment
Best: 1 month on Saturday ♥
Worst: The test next week
Weather: Cold & grey

The memory remains.

2009-04-21T20:58:00.008+02:00

I remember how my heart took an extra beat when I first heard you speak. Suddenly there we were sitting in front of one another leaning towards each other, cheek to cheek.

My heart felt fragile and thin as glass. I kept wishing that this feeling warm feeling that I felt inside would turn cool as ice but it refused to pass.

For the first time I'm scared and so afraid to be honest with myself. If only I could make myself dissapear like a magic little elf.

I'm frightened because my soul tells me I might have done wrong. If only I could make certain things undone I would have written us a song.

I keep wondering what you're thinking of. Only in my dreams you keep appearing like a snow white dove.

I feel like such a helpless fool and I honestly don't know what to do. I can't help the fact that a part of me still beats for you.

Blood rushes through my veins and reaches my face every time we speak. I wish I hadn't been born this weak.

I'm not asking for you to understand. All I long for is for you to hold my hand.

No matter how I try to hold back my soul's heavy rain the memory will always remain.

Pictures from Barcelona.

2009-04-21T20:24:00.020+02:00

Click on the images to enlarge the photos

Home again.

2009-04-21T19:05:00.005+02:00

Hey! How are you guys? :) I had so much fun in Barcelona still it's really good to be home again. Unfortunately my mom forgot to bring our camera again (!) the same thing happened when we went to my other cousin's wedding in Miami last fall.

Luckily I had my iPhone with me so I took some photos with it and my other relatives had their cameras too so we managed to take some photos anyway. Even though we were there for barely 5 days we had time to do so many things! I got to go now but I'll post some photos later.

Next stop: Barcelona!

2009-04-15T07:04:00.008+02:00

Picture: DeviantArt

Yes believe it or not I am still alive - I'm sorry for my absence here on the blog.

Anyway as always I'm busy with something, if it's not boyfriend, family, friends or school then it could also have something to do with work. The good news is that I'm travelling to Barcelona today! Yay :)

I'm going to attend yet another cousine's wedding which I'm sure is going to be beautiful - yes I might even shed a few tears emotional as I am. I'll be gone until Sunday so it's only for a couple of days.

I really have to get ready now but I wish you all a great week and I promise to write about my Spanish adventures when I get back ;) Love /S

P.S. I'll miss you. My love ♥ D.S.

My Thursday.

2009-04-09T09:00:00.004+02:00

Mood: Tired
Done: Breakfast, shower up next
Plans: Work (1 PM - 8 PM)
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: Håkan Hellström - Jag Ger Dig Min Morgon
Reading: Nothing at the moment
Drinking: Apple juice
Eating: I just had breakfast
Best: I'm free tomorrow!
Worst: The cold claustrophobic cloud bank that came in yesterday
Weather: Cold and raining

Marie Digby - Breathing Underwater

2009-04-08T14:38:00.006+02:00

Most played song this week :) Enjoy!

"There's a light in the dark, where the sky splits apart, where the stars find a way to shine through all the spaces in between. Here we are, face to face, all alone in this place, and the night is finally coming down to you and me.

Tell me where you been hiding, Oh I wanna know, your my silver lining covered in gold. Tell me what am I feeling, Oh it's hard to explain, like underwater breathing swimming in rain.

Chorus: Oh Oh Oh (breathing underwater) All I really wanna do (do) is fall a little deeper with you (you) (breathing underwater) And never come up, breathing, breathing under water. Wait for this, (breathing underwater) with every kiss you steal boy, you are making me feel, feel (breathing underwater) like i'm, breathing, breathing, breathing, underwater. "

Update.

2009-04-07T20:36:00.010+02:00

Wow the weeks just keep passing by (!) I can't believe it's already April.. This week most schools have easter vacation meaning no classes. I've been hanging out with Him and I couldn't have had a better time :)

Anyway I got to work on Thursday and Saturday and study some on the days between (small test coming up on Tuesday next week) so I guess one could say that despite the holidays I still have things to do every day.

I'm glad that the week turned out this way :) Time to get prepared for bed, sleep tight!

You made my day.

2009-04-06T14:10:00.003+02:00

Picture: Private - Beautiful roses on my desk!

Your beauty makes me cry.

2009-04-04T22:22:00.007+02:00

Sometimes when I lay awake at night I find myself watching you sleeping. Breathless, helpless and hypnotized by your fearless features I wonder what you are feeling.

Can you hear my heart beat faster and harder every time that you are around? Your smile gives me wings and I find it hard to remain steady on the ground.

Am I still dreaming or is this for real? I will forever be grateful for the way you have helped me heal.

The sparkling light from your eyes tickles every corner of my soul. I simply can't help falling a little bit deeper in love with you, please forgive me but it's not my fault.

Do you believe in love at first sight? I sure do after seeing you on that special night.

Sometimes when I lay awake at night I find myself watching you sleeping. Suddenly I find myself weeping. For it is your inner and outer beauty that makes me cry.

Love makes life a little bit more colourful.

2009-04-03T07:50:00.002+02:00

Picture: DeviantArt

En dag jag sent lär glömma.

2009-04-03T06:48:00.005+02:00

Din blick sa mer än tusen ord. Jag hade fått uppleva de vackraste ögonen på denna jord.

Ditt leende lämnade mig stum. Osäkerheten lämnade spår av rodnad längs med mina kinder och plötsligt kände jag mig ung och dum.

Det var som att vakna upp ur en ljus dröm. Den natten lyckades jag inte få någon sömn.

Dagarna gick och så gick veckorna utan ett spår eller den minsta ledtråd av vart du hade tagit vägen. Jag började nästan tro att du inte hade varit mer än en magisk sägen.

En kväll var du plötsligt där igen sittandes i kupén bakom mig. Fjärilar spred sig som en löpeld i mitt blod och jag kunde inte låta bli att iaktta dig.

Känslan av att jag nu befinner mig i din varma och trygga famn kan inte beskrivas nej inte ens med tusen ord. Men om sanningen ska fram så gör du mig till den lyckligaste flickan på denna jord.

Tired of tests.

2009-04-01T08:36:00.008+02:00

Pictures: DeviantArt

Good morning/evening to you all. I'm sorry for my absence but I have been quite busy these last couple of days. So I guess it's the 1st of April today, the day I've not been looking forward to because of the test I'm having this afternoon.

I'll be writing an essay between 1 PM and 6 PM - luckily we are allowed to bring water and any snack if we would get hungry which I'm sure I will. Anyway I better go and get ready. Cross your fingers for me!

Probably the best feeling in the world.

2009-03-29T00:14:00.007+01:00

I miss you every second we're apart. Still I hold the memory of you close to my heart. Every time I enjoy your precious smile you make my day. I'm glad we both feel the same way, otherwise I wouldn't know what to say.

This is probably the best feeling in the world.
♥

Kent - Utan Dina Andetag.

2009-03-27T08:44:00.006+01:00

Dagens låt

Jag vet att du sover
känner värmen från din hud
bara lukten gör mej svag
men jag vågar inte väcka dej nu

Jag skulle ge dej
allting du pekar på
men bara när du inte hör
vågar jag säga så

Jag kan inte ens gå
utan din luft i mina lungor
jag kan inte ens stå
när du inte ser på
och genomskinlig grå
blir jag
utan dina andetag

Min klocka har stannat
under dina ögonlock
fladdrar drömmarna förbi
inuti är du fjäderlätt och vit

Och utan ett ljud
mitt hjärta i din hand
har jag tappat bort mitt språk
det fastnar i ditt hår

Jag kan inte ens gå
utan din luft i mina lungor
jag kan inte ens stå
när du inte ser på
och färglös som en tår
blir jag
utan dina andetag

Jag kan inte ens gå
utan din luft i mina lungor
jag kan inte ens stå
om du inte ser på
och genomskinlig grå
vad vore jag
utan dina andetag

Vad vore jag
utan dina andetag?

Terrific Thursday.

2009-03-26T08:20:00.005+01:00

Mood: Struggling butterflies inside my stomach ♥
Done: Breakfast (check), shower up next
Plans: Study & work
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: Håkan Hellström - Jag ger Dig min morgon
Reading: Nothing at the moment
Drinking: Lipton's tea
Eating: Nothing at the moment
Best: My love
Worst: The tests next week
Weather: Nothing but an endless blue sky but very cold!

A day to remember.

2009-03-25T15:30:00.010+01:00

Picture: DeviantArt

The smell of your scent still lingers on my skin and reminds me of sweet lavender. I will make a special mark on today's date in my calender.

For today shall be a special day to remember. I love the way you always hold me tight and the way you kiss me so soft, so tender.

After all it feels like I have found my soul mate. Two people have become one and they were brought together by fate.

You mean the world to me. Somehow it feels like this was meant to be. From today on it's just you & me ♥

Lång lista.

2009-03-24T08:08:00.004+01:00

Lovar du att vara ärlig? Ja
Du heter: Liv Sofia
Smeknamn: Fia & knuff (från "fia med knuff")
Låt som när du är ledsen sörjer till?: Evanescence - My Immortal
Beroende av: Musik & myskvällar med familj och vänner
Vad tror folk om dig?: Att jag är en fin, ordentlig flicka som växt upp med silversked i mun, kaxig.
Stämmer det?: Ja och nej. Jag har nog varit en ganska ordentlig flicka som skött mig genom att avstå från rökning och droger med mera. Jag har dock inte vuxit upp med silversked i mun. Har alltid fått kämpa för att komma dit jag vill, och har haft mycket emot mig, folk som inte trott på mig osv. Är definitivt inte kaxig (enstaka tillfällen isåfall) utan ganska snäll, oftast för snäll :)
Vad får du oftast komplimanger för?: Mitt hår, leende och blåa ögon. Tack!
Vad säger du för att imponera på någon?: Nej jag kan inte imponera på folk medvetet, är bara mig själv och hoppas det duger
Hur imponerar man på dig?: Människor med fötterna på jorden, en stor dos humor, ett varmt och ödmjukt hjärta och någon som verkligen är intresserad av en som person, som lyssnar uppmärksammat. Folk som vågar gå egna vägar.
Brukar du skratta för dig själv?: Haha ja, det går inte en dag utan att jag gör det!
Vad står det i ditt senast inkomna SMS?: "Vi äter frukost då. Sen lunch strax efter tolv :)"
Var bor du?: I Stockholm, Nacka.
Trivs du där?: Jag älskar att bo här, har ju mina vänner och familjen här. Sedan är det ett väldigt vackert område året om.
Äger du några converse: Ja ett par
Sprit, cider, vin eller öl: En kall cider eller öl under sommaren är gott annars blir det vitt vin när man är ute på andra sociala evenemang.
Brukar du bli för full: Det har tyvärr hänt, men som tur är lär man sig av misstagen. Jag är nog lite mer försiktig idag.
Vad har du för mobil operatör: Telia
Är du allergisk mot något: Nej inte längre, tidigare laktosintolerant
Har du haft sex idag: Haha, nej
Hur svarar du i mobilen: "Hej, det är Sofia"
Vem ringde du senast?: Hem
Vad sa den du senast pratade med i telefonen: Att det fanns mat till mig hemma, haha
Antal timmar sömn inatt: Ca 6-7 timmar
Sov du ensam: Ja tyvärr :(
Brukar du komma i tid: Haha tidigare var jag väldigt dålig på att passa tider. Sedan jag började jag umgås med två tjejer som råkar vara tidspessimister, så jag har blivit betydligt bättre - man blir väl som man umgås!
När mår du bra: När de jag älskar mår bra och är friska och glada
När blev du fotad senast: Det skulle blivit av i helgen men vårt batteri till kameran dog, så innan det måste det ha varit på Alla ♥ Dag-festen som jag var på i februari tror jag.
Hur känner du dig nu: Lycklig
Vanligaste färg på dina kläder: Det varierar men oftast blir det svart, vitt eller marinblått
Vad tycker du om fötter: Haha att de är riktigt små
Vad saknar du: Den finaste och gladaste personen med det största hjärtat på denna jord
Hade du en bra kväll igår: Mysigaste kvällen på väldigt länge, alldeles underbar!
Favorit dryck på morgonen: Liptons "Forest Fruit Tea" eller C-vitamin brus
Rakar du benen: Ja
När brukar du oftast gå och lägga dig: Det varierar men oftast någon gång mellan 22-23
Är du blyg?: Ja ibland
Sysslar du med någon idrott: Nej inte längre. Spelade tennis, red och dansade tidigare.
Vill du hellre ha mail än brev: Ja för snabbhetens skull, men innerst inne så skulle jag bli betydligt gladare om jag fick ett fint kärleksbrev, hehe hopplös romantiker.. :)
Tror du på kärlek vid första ögonkastet: Ja (♥)
Har du spytt offentligt: Haha det har jag som tur var inte behövt uppleva (spyfobi..)
Vad skulle du göra om du vore kille/tjej för en dag: Ja du, jag är ganska glad att vara tjej så jag vet inte vad jag skulle vilja testa som kille
Är du nöjd med ditt liv: Ja jag är väldigt nöjd med hur mitt liv ser ut idag, med en underbar familj och några riktigt nära vänner så känns nästan livet fulländat. I framtiden önskar jag att jag ska kunna resa mer och hitta nya intressen som får mig att må bra och utvecklas
Är du bortskämd: Ja det är jag nog, har sådan tur med fina människor omkring mig som tar hand om mig och säger fina saker
Vad gör du i morgon: Plugg, plugg, plugg men annars så hoppas jag att jag kan spendera lite tid med en viss person *hint hint* :)
Vad är det värsta du vet?: Människor som skadar djur och barn, människor som ljuger, baktalar folk och gör människor illa pga avundsjuka
Hur mycket pengar brukar du slösa på en vecka?: Jag slösar väl aldrig, hehe
Vilken kändis tycker du är en bra förebild?: Svårt men om jag måste välja en; Angelina Jolie
Vad längtar du till?: Vår, sol, värme, sommar. Tack!
Har du bra vänner och äkta vänskap?: Ja verkligen, too good to be true ♥
Vad använder du för shampoo?: Tigi Bed Head Dumb Blonde varvas med Herbal Essences "ros" schampo
Vad är det finaste du fått?: Min 18-års present från mamma och pappa :)
En speciell dag du minns: Oj vad svårt.. Det finns ju så många! Men får nog allt ta och säga 22 mars... :)
Hur gammal är du: 21, fyller år den 26 januari
Tycker du om någon just nu: Ja *rodnar* ♥
Du samlar på: Doftljus
Gröna eller röda äppeln: Röda (favoriten är Royal gala)
Vem ringer du när du är arg/ledsen: E eller L ♥
Gillar du golf: Nja, har dock aldrig försökt men tror att minigolf är roligare :)
Vilken tid gick du upp idag: 06:26
Har du sovit i din egna säng inatt: Ja
Har du strumpor på dig nu: Nope, har på mig mina grå sheppards
Är det okej att gråta: Absolut
När grät du senast: Igår (lyckliga tårar)
Vad skulle du göra om du vann en miljon: Spara en del, skänka en del och resa :)
Bär du glasögon eller linser: Inget av alternativen
Tycker du det är viktigt att ha märkeskläder: Nej
När går du upp ur sängen en helgmorgon: Allra helst så sent som möjligt men oftast brukar det bli mellan 10 och 11
Har du piercing: Hål i öronen
Vill du gifta dig: Ja
Vill du ha barn: Ja när jag är färdigutbildad, gift och har ett fast jobb
Solar du ofta: Nej, inte nu längre.
Är du bra på att laga mat: Ja hyffsat, lär mig nya saker varje dag!
Är du flygrädd: Brukar bli lite spänd under själva starten men sen går det oftast över
Hur vig är du: Inte så vig
Är du musikalisk?: Ja, spelar, sjunger och trallar lite då och då :)
Vad dricker du helst när du är törstig: Riktigt kallt vatten (gärna med is)
Vilken är din favoritglass: Klassiska Sia eller någon från Ben & Jerry's
Tror du på ett liv efter döden: Ja
Tycker du om sushi: Ja, riktigt gott!
Vad äter du helst när du ser på film: Godis eller chocklad
Bor dina föräldrar tillsammans: Ja
Har du tandläkarskräck: Njae men lite obehagligt är det allt
Är du morgon- eller kvällsmänniska: Skulle nog säga att jag är en blandning av båda
Vilken ögonfärg har du: Blåa
Har du någon gång gråtit dej till sömns: Ja det är inget att rekommendera
Biter du på naglarna: Nejnej
Röker du: Nej usch!
Hur ofta tränar/motionerar du: Jag powerwalkar ca 5 gånger i veckan
Senaste låt du hörde: Anna Ternheim - My Heart Still Beats For You

It's a small world after all.

2009-03-22T20:14:00.007+01:00

Life and love itself normally surprises us at times when we least expect it. The second of them stroke down like lightning the other day and hit me deeper than I ever thought was possible.

I'm still speechless for what happened and maybe, just maybe I'll tell you the amazing story one day. For now all I can say is, "It's a small world after all..." :)

Ta av dig din truckerkeps!

2009-03-21T22:02:00.009+01:00

Bild: Jag i biblioteket i min gamla skola - Observera att bilden är tagen HT 2004 (!)

Jösses här fick jag mig ett gott skratt när jag hittade denna bild (se ovan) från gymnasiet. Det är så roligt att se hur man utvecklas när det kommer till utseende, klädstil osv.

Jag har visserligen alltid klätt mig enligt mina egna principer, det ska kännas bekvämt samtidigt som det ska sitta snyggt. Och det har inte varit lika lätt alla gånger ;)

Men oftast har det inneburit jeans och någon topp som ovan. Det roliga med bilden ovan är vad jag har på huvudet, nämligen en "truckerkeps"! Och här är låten som ni alla säkert känner igen.

Jag hade totalt glömt bort att jag hade en sådan, undrar vart den har tagit vägen? Jag bokstavligen älskade den "We" kepsen.. Lantis i Stockholms innerstad? :P Ja det fungerade tydligen 2004..!

Focus on today and think a little less about tomorrow.

2009-03-21T19:36:00.011+01:00

"Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams." - Ashley Smith

This beautiful quote as mentioned above recently joined my collection of favourite and inspiring quotes. One can also find it written on my blog's right hand margin.

Anyway, the first time I read it I was feeling a bit blue which is why I was searching for something, a picture or just a few words that would cheer me up and so I found this quote. A reminder for people like myself or perhaps a wake up call for others.

For many of us life is all about getting a good education, graduate from (preferably) a well known University with good grades, join the "women/men" in black clan (I'm referring to all the people working in an office where it requires to wear black suits), get married to the woman/man of your dreams, family, house and I can't seem to find an end to this long list.

I'm not saying that one shouldn't do the listed things above on the contrary, I think it's great if one succeeds with it. The important thing is how we do it and how we feel during the steps in between. Like Ashley Smith says, "Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces." I believe that most of us tend to forget to live our life "now" and skip to the next step.

Before the day has ended we are already looking forward to tomorrow. There are many great and small things that happen along the way. Small things such as the bumble bee or great things such as seeing our sons and daughters growing up. "Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.", I couldn't agree more.

I know, it's usually easier said than done but remember that this is just a reminder to every one of us. Stop whatever you are doing and ask yourself how you are doing. We tend to forget about ourselves while focusing on other people around us. Breathe and stay positive, things will get better. Never stop fighting for your dreams.

Damien Rice - Cannonball.

2009-03-20T23:46:00.010+01:00

A beautiful song.

"Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on

Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little BIT of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer EACH DAY
Still I can't SAY what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer TO ME
So close that I can't see what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball..."

Konturer i natten.

2009-03-20T21:42:00.005+01:00

Det var bäcksvart. Högtalaren som stod på skrivbordet på motsatta sidan av rummet gav ifrån sig ett svagt blått sken. Den skulle fortsätta att lysa så även när den sista sången tonat ut. Omgivningen var ny men jag var aldrig rädd.

Du ingav förtroende och respekt och lät de hänga likt två oförglömliga pärlor runt min hals. Jag var trygg.

Samtidigt som endorfiner spred sig som en löpeld i mitt blod så försvann min trötthet och förmåga att sova. Du var trött och jag var klarvaken. Du var tålmodig nog att låta mina fingrar leka i ditt nyblivna rufsiga hår. I nattens mörker lät jag mina fingerspetsar agera ögon och smekte därför försiktigt känsliga områden såsom panna, näsa, ögonbryn, haka och kind.

Ditt ansiktes konturer speglades upp i mitt sinne och är nu sparade i mitt minne. Jag ville inte somna eftersom varje sekund med dig liggandes bredvid mig kändes värdefull. Det var nattens slut som jag fruktade och min innersta önskan var att den aldrig skulle ta slut. Desto fortare man somnar desto fortare går nattens sista timmar. Plötsligt hade vi vaknat av gryningens första ljus då natten nått sitt slut.

Timmarna gick. Det var bäcksvart. Helt omedvetna om den nya dagens ljus som befann sig utomhus insåg jag sakta att sanden i timglaset höll på att rinna ut. Jag gjorde ett sista försök att "fånga natten" som varit och viskade en sista önskan i ditt öra. Jag bad dig om att hålla om mig. Sakta slöt jag ögonen och andades in. Du höll om mig, jag log ett brett leende och andades ut.

Another chapter has ended.

2009-03-17T23:48:00.008+01:00

Picture: DeviantArt

Finally today we made it, my heart and I. Together we reached the longed-for ending of one of my longest and painful chapters in my life. In your presence I listened for any disturbing thoughts or feelings but all I could hear was my heart's silence.

Finally I'm ready, to leave it all but remain as good friends. After so many years I'm ready to move on and this time it's for real.

Certain memories will never be forgotten and you will always have a special place deep inside my heart.

Thank you for putting out with me over these past years, thank you for wiping away my tears. And so another chapter has ended. Did I mention that I love happy endings?

Tired on a Tuesday.

2009-03-17T08:56:00.003+01:00

Mood: I'm still feeling a bit sleepy, time to wake up, shower up next!
Done: Breakfast (check)
Plans: One class in the afternoon, go home and change, meet up with V
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: Kent - Socker
Reading: Nothing at the moment
Drinking: Water
Eating: Lunch in a few hours
Best: One more day to Wednesday.. :)
Worst: All the reading I've got to do this week
Weather: Still grey but hey, it's getting warmer!

Courage.

2009-03-16T23:10:00.006+01:00

Picture: (right) DeviantArt (left) Private - Me

This is according to my personal opinion the most beautiful wild animal that has ever walked this planet. I proudly present the White Tiger. "Contrasts only make you stronger".

Every time I look at those blue angelic eyes my soul is filled with courage at times when I feel weak. This little innocent cub reminds me to keep on fighting no matter what obstacle life may throw at you.

A story worth telling.

2009-03-16T17:10:00.007+01:00

E, one of my best friends told me a beautiful story earlier today over the phone. A story worth telling to your family and friends. This is how the story goes.

This is the story about a young boy and his father. One day the boy asked his father if he would run a marathon with him? The father answered, "Sure, why not?" and so they ran the race together.

A few weeks later the boy comes up to his father and asks him the same question, "Dad, would you run a marathon with me?" and so the father answered, "Sure, we'll do it again.".

A month later the boy comes up to his father and asks him this third time another similar question, "Dad, would you run an Ironman with me?" and so the father answered yes one more time, even though he was uncertain of what an Ironman really is.

For those of you who don't know here is the definition of it: "Endurance contest involving swimming, cycling, and running. Triathlons originated in California in the 1970s and became an Olympic event in 2000. Olympic and world championship triathlons consist of a 1.5-km open water swim, a 40-km bicycle ride, and a 10-km run. The sport's most famous event, the Ironman triathlon, is held annually in Hawaii and consists of a 3.8-km (2.4-mi) swim, a 180-km (112-mi) bicycle ride, and a 42.2-km (26.2-mi) marathon run."

Now I would like you to take a look at the video posted below and keep this story in mind. Enjoy! :)

Nine West Gladiator.

2009-03-16T07:14:00.004+01:00

Picture: Kaboodle

I'm still dreaming of these shoes... I still regret my stupid decision not to take them while I was at one of the biggest sales in Miami last fall (!) :( Stupid, stupid, stupid...

Black and White.

2009-03-15T11:15:00.004+01:00

Finally it's getting warmer! According to the weather people they all keep saying that Spring is officially here but I've had my doubts since it's been cold and snowing several times these last couple of weeks. I can still see the thin traces of the white snow across our lawn. By next week they will probably be gone.

It's getting brighter every morning which is also a good thing and the days seem to get longer, the pitch black sky does not appear until late in the afternoon (around 6 PM) instead by 3.30 PM.

Despite of all these good signs I decided to go for a dark new layout, don't get me wrong though, I'm really looking forward to this bright season. Still, the two colours black and white have always been one of my personal combos. It's a classic that never fades.

Lost, yet Surrounded.

2009-03-13T20:29:00.005+01:00

Picture: DeviantArt

Am I the only one who can hear the misty forest call my name when I am fast asleep? I find myself walking around in circles and soon I have gotten way too deep.

A soft shiver is spread down my spine as the whirling wind catches my hair's light curls. All I can see is an endless sky, where the only hope of light comes from the new moon's reflection on my perfect pearls.

Suddenly I realize that I am lost, yet surrounded. Lost in something that seems to be a never-ending nightmare, surrounded by painful memories that makes me feel grounded.

Haunted feelings is spread and burn like a fierce flame inside my heart's secret chamber. The pain makes my trembling throat scream for forgiveness and that is when I loose my temper.

All emotions that I have kept locked up behind bars are suddenly released and so my tears bring my soul down under. I keep praying that someone will take care of all my inner thunder.

Am I the only one who can see my shadow grow and get darker for every day? I wish there was another way.

Tired on a Thursday.

2009-03-12T07:06:00.005+01:00

Mood: Still sleepy, it's too early.. *yawn*
Done: Breakfast (check)
Plans: Test in 2 hours, meet up with A afterwards, dinner at S tonight
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: Marie Digby - Say it Again
Reading: Nothing at the moment
Drinking: Water
Eating: I've saved an apple for later ;)
Best: It's Thursday (!) and the test will be over today..
Worst: It's still too cold outside
Weather: Grey cloud bank but at least it stopped snowing

An enchanted garden.

2009-03-11T19:46:00.012+01:00

Pictures: Private - Taken by me on and outside our house lot

I simply had to take some photos with my iPhone today as I arrived home from town. Besides, by Sunday it will all have disappeared so I figured that I needed to act fast ;)

As you can see from the pictures above we really got plenty of snow (!) I haven't been able to measure how much but my guess is somewhere between 10 - 15 cm. I still think it's crazy considering we're already in March.. Somehow I'm in love with our new enchanted garden :)

Friends Forever.

2009-03-10T22:12:00.005+01:00

Picture: DeviantArt

I just found this adorable picture of these two cute ice bears. Which reminds me, bear hug anyone? :)

Waking up in a winter wonderland.

2009-03-10T12:10:00.007+01:00

As I was talking to V last night over the phone I saw how the black sky opened up and down came the thinest of white snowflakes. It kept snowing the entire night and believe it or not it's still snowing as I'm writing this post (!).

Still since I really do love the winter season and snow so much it felt kind of cosy waking up to see this winter wonderland outside my bedroom window. I'm thinking about making some hot chocolate later.. :)

Another part of me is dying to put on my thin leather jacket and wear it together with light spring/summer dresses. Anyway I guess I'll let my fantasy remain somewhere deep inside my head, for now. Time for lunch!

You don't know how long I've waited for this call.

2009-03-09T22:16:00.005+01:00

Picture: Private - Me at New Year's Eve (2008/2009)

Who would have thought that something so ordinary like a simple phone call could wake up the deepest and repressed feelings of them all.. I simply cannot allow the fact that they still have this level of influence over me. It's gone from pathetic to unhealthy.

This is me, after you.
After your call, after your smile, after your existence..
This is me, after you.

Back on track.

2009-03-09T21:12:00.008+01:00

Monday - meaning new start and a new week. I spent something that felt like an endless amount of hours on setting up new goals but most importantly this time I've put up small but realistic goals.

I'm talking about my health and the lack of energy I've been feeling these last couple of months since I stopped exercising regularly.

I hear and read about it everywhere and everyday, on the news, in magazines etc, people talking about the positive effects regular exercise do to a person's health today but also in the long run, I'm talking about let's say 20 years from now. I've been convinced to start again, taking baby steps that will hopefully show good results in the long run. So I'm officially back on track ;)

En vinterdröm.

2009-03-08T20:26:00.017+01:00

Picture: DeviantArt

Du lämnade mig trollbunden likt vinterns första snö gör varje år. Din glada utstrålning värmde upp både kropp och själ för att inte tala om mina frusna små tår.

Du höll min hand i din och jag önskade att vår stund aldrig skulle nå ett slut. Mitt hjärta slog nervösa och ojämna slag i hopp om att den skulle finna en väg ut.

Dina ögon fick mig nästan att sluta andas då de lyste kristall klara som de vackraste safirer. Du gav mig en lekfull blick som påminde mig om Atlantens fria delfiner.

Din närvaro stärkte vårt nyblivna vänskapsband. Jag rodnar än idag när jag tänker tillbaka på min reaktion när du tog tag i min hand.

Du lämnade mig trollbunden likt vinterns första snö gör varje år. Du försvann lika snabbt som snöflingan gör varje år. Saknaden får mig att fälla ännu tår.

3 is a magic number.

2009-03-07T22:20:00.005+01:00

♥ Three jobs that I've had: Leader at a confirmation camp for youth, Telephone salesman, Shop assistant
♥ Three cities that I've lived in: Sao Paulo (Brazil), Mexico City (Mexico), Stockholm (Sweden)
♥ Three things I like to watch on TV: News and the weather casts at svt1, House, The City
♥ Three favorite dishes: Anything that involves chicken, Roe deer, Tacos
♥ Three places where I wish I could be right now: Home, in a sunny and warm country or preferably my dream city, NY!
♥ Three people that I challenge: To all of my readers: leave a comment with your answers on this post! Or write them in your blog and post the link and I'll check it out ;)

Summer of 2009.

2009-03-07T11:40:00.006+01:00

Picture: New House

In early January this year I resigned from the Danish clothing brand "Jackpot" where I worked almost an entire year. I learned a lot about different sale techniques which are an important part of the policy's of the company.

Anyway I decided it was time to change working environment so I've been out looking for a new job. One must not forget that we're in a difficult time right now with the economic crisis still hanging over us. After that I'd been around a few stores must people said that they either had to let some people go because they simply can't afford to pay their salaries or they had some kind of stop when it comes to hiring new employees.

It's sad really, because I know there are many students just like myself out there looking for some kind of job to the summer. However I believe I was lucky when I managed to get myself a new job for the summer at the Swedish brand called "New House"! They seem like really nice people, especially the owner of the store who welcomed me with open arms.

I really have a good feeling about this so my goal is to work from mid June until July. At the beginning I was afraid I wouldn't have any work for the summer but now I'm more than glad that I got this opportunity. So for those of you who might still be looking for something, don't give up! If I could do it so can you! Good luck!

Soft Saturday.

2009-03-07T11:08:00.004+01:00

Mood: Tired
Done: Breakfast (check)
Plans: Study and go to town with mom
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: The Fray - You Found Me
Reading: Nothing at the moment
Drinking: Water
Eating: Nothing at the moment
Best: It's going to be a comfortable weekend
Worst: The test next week
Weather: Grey cloudbank, where did the sun go?

Better day.

2009-03-04T20:44:00.005+01:00

Picture: DeviantArt

Tomorrow will be a much better day. I know it because I can feel it. Sweet dreams!

Weird Wednesday.

2009-03-04T19:19:00.005+01:00

It's been such a long and weird Wednesday I'm glad it's almost over. For once I managed to go to bed early last night, I figured I would have a long good night's sleep, I can't believe how wrong I was about that since I ended up being able to sleep max four hours.

At 1.30 AM I woke up, shivering and I felt so cold. Luckily I had my blanket nearby but it didn't seem like enough but somehow I managed to fall asleep again. The next time my body woke me up was around 3.30 AM but this time I was feeling so warm.

I was sweating and I could feel how my forehead and back was all wet. And the high fever I probably had on top of everything made me feel even worse. What a night, huh? At this point I had to leave my bed, struggling to find for some painkillers.

After I took them I managed to fall asleep much deeper this third (!) time and slept all morning. I still feel exhausted and my entire body is in so much pain, I don't know why all my muscles are hurting so much? Perhaps could it be a new cold that is on it's way? Or worse, another flue?

I don't know but I'm so tired of getting sick all the time. I'm going to see a doctor tomorrow, hopefully he'll be able to give me some answers.

Sorry about this negative post but I just had to try to get this bad feeling out of my system. I don't know if it worked but it was worth a try anyway. I hope you had a much better day than I had.

Another Way To Die - Alicia Keys feat. Jack White.

2009-03-03T21:08:00.004+01:00

Tonight's most played song. One of Alicia Keys best videos I would say.

Angel of mine.

2009-03-03T19:02:00.008+01:00

Angel of mine please walk with me on the invisible ice. Angel of mine I feel so unworthy of you, truly you have been far too nice.

Angel of mine will you be there to hold me when I cry? Angel of mine would you please teach me how to fly?

Angel of mine promise me you will stay throughout the night. Angel of mine only in your presence I can feel the warmth from a candlelight.

Angel of mine I would never leave your side. Angel of mine let's go for a ride.

Angel of mine if words only could describe how much I adore that precious smile of yours. Angel of mine you could easily sweep me off my feet on all floors.

Angel of mine I don't know what else to say. Angel of mine promise me that our friendship will grow old and only in this way?

New Moon.

2009-03-03T16:18:00.009+01:00

Pictures: Livejournal

Soon. Very soon we will be able to see the second film in the "Twilight saga", I'm so exited to see "New Moon". Soon. It will happen very soon.

I've got Spotify.

2009-03-02T19:28:00.004+01:00

Amazing, that is all I can say at the moment. I'm overwhelmed with all the great songs I have been able to find after downloading this music programme called "Spotify".

You can't download the songs to your computer but you can create your own playlists in this programme and listen to all different kinds of songs while you're connected to the Internet.

I've been using Apple's music programme iTunes all because I have an iPod and now also an iPhone but to be honest I'm not impressed by their programme. I really do think that it's a great idea to buy music online, if only they could lower their prices (!) because now it's way too high.

If they wish that more people shall buy their music online in order to support their favourite musicians they really should consider the fact to lower certain prices. For example, I bought Kelly Clarkson's new song "My Life Would Suck Without You" on iTunes and it cost me 9 sek which is quite a lot for only one song.

Obviously they need to "win" something out of it but this is honestly ridiculous. This debate of downloading music, movies etc have been a going on debate for many years now. Will it ever end? All I can say now is that I'm glad I found Spotify! :)

These boots are made for walking.

2009-03-01T16:40:00.010+01:00

Picture: Linn's blog at pause

I completely forgot to show you these gorgeous high black leather boots that I bought last week. I've been looking at them the entire fall but I thought 1499 sek was a bit too expensive so I never bought them at that time.

The other day I visited the Swedish shoe store Rizzo (where I had found the boots) and saw that pretty little red tag saying, "50 %"! :) So I got them for half the original price which I'd like to think is a really good bargain price.

Luckily they had one pair of 38 left so I guess that it was meant to be that I was going to have them! :P

They remind me a bit of Julia Robert's boots in "Pretty Woman" with the exception that her boots had high heels while mine are completely flat (much more comfortable..). I've already started to use them and I'll continue until they fall apart..!

Sunny Sunday.

2009-03-01T11:28:00.004+01:00

Mood: Nothing but smiles :)
Done: Breakfast (check) and lunch soon..
Plans: Read a little and spend most of my afternoon outdoors!
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: Kelly Clarkson - My life would suck without You
Reading: DN
Drinking: Water
Eating: Nothing at the moment
Best: The b e a u t i f u l weather!
Worst: It's supposed to get colder again next week?
Weather: Nothing but sunshine! :)

Only in my Dreams.

2009-03-01T00:09:00.003+01:00

Picture: Private, taken by my brother when he one day caught me when I was sleeping (!)

"Lay down my angel for you need to rest". I whispered in his ear as he let his head fall weightless against my chest.

Every time I have you near I can feel how my heart suddenly starts to sing and how sweet is the music that always caresses the ear. Close your eyes and you will also be able to hear.

For some reason I feel safe when you are around and so for a short moment all the trouble disappear. Perhaps it is the bright light I can see every time that I look into your big blue eyes that has helped me get rid off my greatest fear?

A light filled with friendship, joy and hope. A sign of peace just like a free white dove.

Music Tag.

2009-02-28T16:06:00.006+01:00

D tagged me in this new Music Tag, which sounded kind of fun! :) Here are my answers.

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question.
NO CHEATING...

What does next year have in store for me?
My heart will go on (instrumental by Jim Brickman)
That's a good sign.

What's your love life like?
Hurt (Christina Aguilera)
Now I wonder why I am not surprised that this song showed up? ...

What do you say when life gets hard?
I am what I am (Jonas Brothers)
Haha, I don't know about this one.. :P

What do you think when you get up in the morning?
Anything at All (Tristan Prettyman)
True..

What song will you dance to at your wedding?
Tears on Love (Yiruma)
Nice since it is a beautiful song!

Your favourite saying?
Var nöjd med allt som livet ger (Disney Classics Collection)
Hahaha that's right! :D

Favourite place?
Don't forget to remember me (Carrie Underwood)
Hmm..?

What do you think of your parents?
Less is More (Joss Stone)
Yeah, they can be a liiittle bit too overprotective sometimes ;) But hey, that's what makes my parents special and I love them for that!

Where would you go on a first date?
When a heart is Broken (Lemar)
Weird answer..

Drug of choice?
Bella's Lullaby (Carter Burwell)
"Yes, you are exactly my brand of heroin." ^^

Describe yourself:
Come on over Baby (Christina Aguilera)
Brave? Dare? Flirtatious? Outgoing? Yes x 4! ;)

What is the thing you like doing most?
Out of Reach (Gabrielle)
Being out of reach? I don't think so..

The song that best describes your school principal:
Crazy Dreams (Carrie Underwood)
Haha I don't know..!

What is your state of mind like at the moment?
Mary's Song (Taylor Swift)

How will you die?
I wanna rock and roll (Kiss)
Awesome, that's the spirit ;)

I tag: Emma, Frida, Jan & J ohan

An artistic Saturday.

2009-02-28T12:12:00.023+01:00

It's been a while since I did anything creative. Well obviously I do write a lot but and I sing/play on my instrument almost every day but apart from that I haven't been drawing for a very long time. Another great passion of mine that had to be put aside for a while due to lack of inspiration.

Anyway that was not what this post was supposed to be about. For many years I have tried to keep some form of diary without success until I decided to combine my everyday texts with other poems, quotes, thoughts and songs that inspire me.

The result of this is what you can see on the pictures above! (Click on the images for larger views) The magnificent book which I found at NK in Stockholm reminds me a lot of "The Lord of the Rings" saga and since I am a big fan of calligraphy I decided that all texts shall be written with one of my calligraphy pens which I got from my dad last Christmas.

With light snowflakes falling outside my bedroom window I therefore decided to stay indoors today and just have a relaxed and artistic Saturday. Have a great day!

You gave me too many reasons to cry.

2009-02-26T22:04:00.009+01:00

No matter what you say you won't be able to make certain things undone. I've began to realize that I'll be far much better off with you gone.

You hurt me once and you could do it again. I'm sorry to say it like this but I believe that it's over my friend.

After all you left me heartbroken and all alone. You surprised me that day when I received your text message on my phone.

Angry and confused tears streamed down my face. Luckily I could hide myself in my friend's warm embrace.

No one deserves to be treated the way you treated me. You should have been honest with me from the very start, why can't you see?

You hurt me deeper than I've ever felt. It felt as a hard punch right beneath my belt.

This is me now, turning my back on you and finally I'm free to fly. Bottom line,
you gave me too many reasons to cry.

Hot coco for two?

2009-02-25T22:48:00.003+01:00

Picture: DeviantArt
Let's talk about it tomorrow, just you and me. Over a hot cup of coco..

He will always be her Hero.

2009-02-25T21:38:00.009+01:00

He found her unconscious as she had fell through the deep black hole in the ice. Someone had to make a decision about her life and so the little angels threw a white dice.

Her hands were all twisted as she had tried to keep herself warm. With disrupted eyes he got a firm hold of her shoulders as he lifted her with one steady arm.

Her heartbeat was slow and uneven but he never stopped believing. She was going to make it, that was his inner feeling.

He wrapped her in his arms and kept whispering inside her ear, "you've been saved, please hold on just a little bit longer". She spent almost an entire week at the hospital, waiting for her heart to get stronger.

Her family were there standing by her bed when she finally opened up her blue eyes just like a newborn child. He was standing right next to the door watching her with a careful eye as he felt how his heartbeat went wild.

She met his intense gaze and felt how the blood rushed up and coloured her face. They both smiled, she knowing that she would be forever grateful that he had saved her life, he feeling relieved that she was safe.

Zara S/S 2009.

2009-02-24T16:28:00.008+01:00

Picture: Zara

No doubt that the designers at the Spanish fashion empire Zara found their inspiration for the designs as seen on the picture above from Stella McCartney and her designs for S/S 2009.

As I mentioned before I'm glad to see that the white jacket is back! I bought one a few years ago from the Swedish brand Tiger of Sweden. I can't wait until I can wear mine to lighter dresses/skirts for spring/summer.

I will definitely go with the black/white/nude colours this year and it looks so good both on white and tanned skin. Anyway like I said, the clothes above are gorgeous not to mention the hot model - Lara Stone..

My Tuesday.

2009-02-24T11:46:00.006+01:00

Mood: Worn
Done: Busy studying all day
Plans: Babysitting tonight
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: Mario - How do I breath
Reading: "Eclipse" by Stephanie Meyer
Drinking: Milk ;)
Eating: Semla
Best: We're going out dancing tomorrow!
Worst: No nothing like that today
Weather: Winter wonderland outside my bedroom window

He Keeps Me Alive - Sally Shapiro.

2009-02-22T16:04:00.007+01:00

"I said I wish you never knew
How I feel for you
It's hard to be just friends
Now after all
I said I wanted more
He said how can you be so sure
I'm not sure I'm faithful after all

Chorus:
But I'm still happy
When I get to hold his hand
He says I can hold it
But remember we're just friends
And I try, and I try
And I try to be satisfied
After all he keeps me alive

I'm happy when he smiles
If only for awhile
It's hard to just ignore a face like that
I wish he was everywhere
I wish his hand was in my hair
I would have been less lonely for a while"

Please, try to keep this in mind.

2009-02-21T23:43:00.009+01:00

Please, try not to judge me by my sometimes impulsive, sensitive yet personal actions. Please, try to have patience with me since I have never been good at calculating difficult fractions.

All I wish to see is that stunning smile upon your face. The world's most beautiful smile that always reminds me of your heart's golden grace.

Please, try not to be suspicious whenever I say something that might be new and perhaps a bit frightening to you. Please, try to remember that I would never do or say anything to hurt you.

All that matters is that you don't get me all wrong. This could be a great new adventure for both of us so sit back and don't forget to hold on.

Please, try not to judge me by my sometimes impulsive, naive yet personal actions. Please, try to remember that it's my heart that is responsible by any of my foolish but still lovable actions. Please, try to keep this in mind.

The trio having fun out on the ice.

2009-02-21T16:44:00.015+01:00

SEB = Best Friends Forever! "Blod är tjockare än vatten" - Jag älskar er ♥

Sports Holidays.

2009-02-21T14:18:00.008+01:00

Next Monday starts the annual Sports Holidays here in Stockholm which means no school for children/students. Even though I won't have any classes I still have to study, there's two big tests coming up within a few weeks still I am going to try to enjoy and relax a bit, I think I deserve it :)

Still many families goes up north to ski but usually it's really cold during this season and I prefer the Swedish skiresorts during the Easter Holidays which is by the end of March when it tends to be much warmer.

I'm not going skiing this year but I might next year and so I'm thinking about giving snowboard a second chance ;) I've always wanted to learn it so I'm not giving up! We'll see how it goes.. (to be continued)

A true friend can bring in light even in the darkest of hours.

2009-02-18T23:36:00.006+01:00

Picture: DeviantArt

You're always there when I feel like all the hope is dead and gone.

Thank you for just being you.. You're the reason for why I keep singing this song..

En dröm.

2009-02-18T20:46:00.008+01:00

Du föll ner likt ett sammetsrött höstlöv och smekte min kalla kind. Dina fingrar lekte i mitt sommarblekta hår och flätades ihop i en ljummen vind.

Du fick mig på fall och likt ett litet barn somnade jag tryggt i din famn. Du fyllde min själ med en inre frid, lugnt och stillsamt fick jag vila som en båt i en säker hamn.

Din varma hud tätt intill min fick min puls att öka takten. Du vann tackvare din ärliga och personliga sida, du har officiellt avslutat jakten.

Dina ögon föll ner likt ett klart stjärnfall och kysste mitt leende på mina läppar. Du fick mig att tro på inget annat än oss två och det kunde ingen ändra på, inte ens om de skulle komma att slåss med tusen käppar.

Du föll ner likt ett sammetsrött höstlöv och smekte min kalla kind. Du lade din hand i min och tillsammans gick vi över de gröna ängarna och igenom vår vita grind.

Thanks for a great party!

2009-02-16T22:08:00.008+01:00

Picture: J's blog (From left; J, L, F & me)

I found this picture (as seen above) on one of L's room mates J from the Valentine's Day party I went to last Saturday.

We had such a great time! It was one of those rare occations when actually everybody (!) was having a good time - it seemed like it anyway!

It's getting really late (read: I'm really tired) so I'm going to bed. Sweet dreams! Love /S

My Monday.

2009-02-16T19:00:00.004+01:00

Mood: Serene
Done: I've been busy studying all day basically (boring I know) but I did meet up with L on the train home so we had time to talk a while :)
Plans: Besides from sleeping? Haha nothing special I guess, after all it's Monday
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: Robert Pattinson - Never Think (Twilight)
Reading: I've made it through both "Twilight" and "New Moon" in less than 2 weeks (!) and now I've started on "Eclipse" - honestly, these books are amazing..
Drinking: Water
Eating: Just had dinner
Best: L & I have a double date on Thursday ;)
Worst: I don't know, nothing I suppose? I had such a fun weekend so I got a good start of the week
Weather: Still cold (below cero) but we had beautiful thin snowflakes coming down from the sky earlier today so it felt as if it was December all over again which made it feel kind of cosy :)

Today's Song.

2009-02-14T11:11:00.008+01:00

Nickelback - Gotta be somebody

"This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I'll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my own breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with

`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there. ..."

Happy Valentine's Day! ♥

2009-02-14T10:58:00.006+01:00

Sorry about my absence these last couple of days (!) I've been pretty busy almost every day. Anyway today's Valentine's Day! A day which many think is only for commercial purposes but I still think that it's a day when we should show the people we love a little bit extra than what we usually do.

Tonight L and her corridor mates have arranged this Valentine's Day Party which I'm think is going to be great! I better get started, next up a shower! I wish you all a happy Valentine's Day!

Beautiful day with signs of Spring.

2009-02-09T15:15:00.010+01:00

Picture: DeviantArt

I had almost forgotten how warm and pleasant the sun can make you feel. For the first time since I don't know when we were finally able to see the sun today. As I walked to the train station while leaving home this morning I simply could not stop staring up towards the blue and cloudless (!) sky.

The thick layer of snow is gone and so I'm just waiting for the first sign of our bay's two beautiful swans. (My mom even named them, how cute isn't that? :-), Sonja & Viktor)

Whatever there's left of this dreadful winter let it please pass us fast, I'm longing for Spring more than ever now and I truly want this feeling to last!

P.S. As if my day could not end in a better way? I'm finally going to see "Twilight" on the movies tonight with E, if only I had enough words to describe how passionate I've become about this beautiful novel ♥ D.S.

My Sunday.

2009-02-08T12:29:00.005+01:00

Mood: Satisfied
Done: Breakfast (check) Lunch up next
Plans: Study and later meet up with E in town, we're going to see a modern version of William Shakespeare's "The Merry Wives of Windsor" at The Royal Dramatic Theater.
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: Edward Cullen - Esme's favourite (Twilight)
Reading: Guess? ;) It's starts with a T...
Drinking: Water
Eating: Like I wrote above I should probably have lunch soon
Best: E and I are going to see "Twilight" tomorrow evening!
Worst: I have to admit that I think I read the novel far too fast, which is why I decided to read it again just this once more and then start on the second one when I feel like I'm "ready" for it :)
Weather: Cold & humid (due to last night's rain)