France, here I come!

Good night dear readers, this will be my last post before I leave you all and head to France. I will be spending a week there so I'll be home next Sunday.

I hope you all will have a lovely week while I'm gone, enjoy Halloween! I promise you that I will take many pictures, where I might publish some of them here..

I guess all there's left to say is, France, here I come! Take care, /Sofia

Good morning!

I just woke up for about one hour ago and I'm about to jump in to the shower in a minute but I just wanted to write something first.. :P

Anyway I'm off to town for a few hours to run the last errands I need to do before the big trip tomorrow!! I woke up in the best mood today, so I'm really happy :)

Anyway I hope you will all have a wonderful day! Ciao!

Thoughts around midnight.

Picture: DeviantArt

I want peace in my mind. I wish I had done things differently and that I wouldn't have been so blind.

I didn't see what was going on between us. Something clicked inside of me, I know we had a special chemistry going on between us.

I am lost now. I wish I could find my own way out, the question is just how?

Am I the only one who still feels the same? I just hope you don't see this as a ridiculous game.

For me this is real. So please tell me, what's the deal?

I don't want to end up all heart broken again. Please tell me if you don't want to change anything, tell me if you just want to be friends.

Because I need to know. All I know is that I can't wait for that long, perhaps until the first snow.

I am leaving everything for one week. This is my journey and I will continue to seek.

All I want is to have peace in my heart and my mind. The answers I am looking for I will try to find.

I have told you this before but I still think of you everyday. There are moments when I have so much I need to say. So many things I should have said back in May..

The time has gone so fast. I really hoped that the thing we had going on would last.

Somehow I think I am wrong. Perhaps I should have known this all along?

I finished the list.

I had so many plans for tonight, I was supposed to almost finish packing my suitcase, but have I started? No.

Well I at least finished the list of things I'm bringing with me, so that is kind of a relief. I really can't believe it. In less than two days I will be on my way to France! Yay! We're going to have so much fun.

Anyway I planned to do some last minutes errands tomorrow in town to make sure I have everything with me and also finish the suitcase, I don't want to be doing that on Saturday morning....!

Christina Aguilera - Perfume Commercial.

I had no idea that Christina Aguilera had created her own perfume! I heard about it yesterday when I was in town and I had to go in to a beauty store to try it.
It smells l o v e l y!! I loved it!

So the big question is; perhaps I should try to find it while I'm in Paris next week? After all I will visit the big empire of Sephora! Oh I can't wait!

Headache.

Unfortunately I woke up with the worst headache this morning. It has lasted all day and is still bothering me. My mother claimed that I've not been drinking enough water, could that be the reason?

Anyway I think I will lay down for a bit and take a nap. I will need the energy later because tonight I'm going to attend a lecture in town where the famous Swedish authoress Mia Törnblom will talk about her new novel "More self-esteem". I received an invitation and I thought why not? It could be interesting.

But now it's time for my nap! Later.

Love me.

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♥

Love me and I will prove to you the power of destiny.
Would you hold me in your arms at night even though we turned off the light?

Love me and I will give you every part of me.
Would you be a gentleman and tell me all the things a lady needs to hear?

Love me and I will make you the happiest man on earth. Yes I would travel around the globe for you, all the way down to Perth.
Would you respect me being the woman I am? Please be honest and don't let this end like a ridiculous sham.

Love me and I will do small everyday things that will make your day. I want to see that happy expression on your face, I wonder what you would say.

But first of all open up your eyes and tell me what you see. Is there a place for me inside of you? I truly want to believe that there might be a small chance of us becoming a "we".

Love me and we will see if we were meant to be?

♥

Alphabet of Sofia.

A is for age: 20 on the 26th of January!
B is for booze of choice: Coke with ice and a fresh lime slice.
C is for career: Graduated from high school may 2007, future plans are to study abroad!
D is for your dad’s name: Gunnar
E is for essential items to bring to a party: High heels of course.

F is for favourite song at the moment: Hmm I don't know. I listened to NeYo and Rihannas new song earlier today, "Hate that I love you" or something like that..
G is for favourite game: I haven't played a game for ages, but I guess I would say Sims, does that count?
H is for home town: Stockholm
I is for instruments you play: Keyfiddle (Nyckelharpa in Swedish)
J is for jam or jelly you like: Strawberry jam with Swedish pancakes!
K is for kids: Lots of them! (I hope) I really want to have a big family, 3-4 kids.
L is for living arrangements: Still living at home with my family
M is for mother’s name: Maggie
N is for name of your crush: Did you actually think I would write that down? ;)
O is for overnight hospital stays: Hmm a few when I was younger when I got operated for a few things but after that none.
P is for phobias: Dark rooms and spiders.
Q is for quotes you like: "There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved." - George Sand
R is for relationship that lasted the longest: Two years.

S is for sartorial style: Skinny jeans together with high heels and a cute top - the perfect party outfit!
T is for time you wake up: Around 7 during the week and I try to sleep more on Saturdays.
U is for underwear: Depends on the outfit and what mood I'm in.
V is for vegetables you love: Cucumber, tomatoes and some fresh salad together with a few drops of olive oil - that's simply one of the best salads!
W is for weekend plans: I'm going to France on Saturday!! I'll be away for a week.

X is for x-rays you’ve had: None I think.
Y is for yummy food you make: I love chicken and salmon. So the dishes vary a lot. But I also love to make tacos for the family on Fridays usually.
Z is for zodiac sign: Aquarius

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Mood: Laid back.
Clothes: Acne jeans, white top from H&M, black cardigan also from H&M.
Music: Let It Out - The Hombres

Challenge.

I received a comment on one of my previous posts from my friend Kevin saying that I had been challenged! An interesting one for a change. Here we go, I have to tell you 7 things that are true about myself so that I can challenge 7 other people to do the same thing on their blogs.

So here they are:

1. One of my greatest passions is to sing, I've been doing it since I was 7 years old and I have no idea why I suddenly would quit? It's just something that's not going to happen. At least not in this lifetime ;)

2. I have a secret crush on Michael Jordan. *blushing* (well I guess it's not secret anymore?) There's just something special with tall guys, still I'm quite a shorty :)

3. I can't live without music! Ask someone in my family and they will tell you it is true. I listen to it almost 24/7.

4. I love being social, meeting new people and all of that. My friends would probably say that I'm quite out-going.

5. I truly believe in faith.

6. I have a big collection of shells.

7. I am a "night-person" still I have no difficulties of waking up early in the morning with one exception! Saturdays! That was it.

I now challenge: Emma, Erik, Filippa, Karoline, Linn, Paddington's shadow, Tina

Memories of you.

My friend caught me on camera while we were walking in Djurgården earlier this week, it was a perfect day and somehow I just couldn't get you off my mind.

No matter what I do I always find more than one minute or two to think of you.

My memory reminds me of your beautiful blue eyes and how your presence always filled my stomach with struggling butterflies.

No matter the distance between us because you can always make me smile. Still it is not the same as when you are here standing next to me, so I guess its been a while.

No matter if the sky is grey, you always find something clever to say.

I just wish I could have spent more time with you back in May. Still, I don't know whether if I would have had the right words to say.

Seeing you, spending time with you, hearing your voice, it was simply my choice.

I really liked it and I really miss it.

I wish to see you again some day soon. Until then I will continue watching the sun during the day and the stars during the night, last but not least I hope to see your reflection in the moon.

When I am close to you I feel strong. Suddenly I feel like ten feet tall.

If things would go wrong I promise to be there to break your fall. If you haven't noticed it yet I tell you it now, you mean a lot to me after all.

Sunday.

I have no free space on my desk.. Only maths books, a calculator, a ruler, pencils and my laptop of course which I shouldn't be using right now..

I just looked through the homework I have for tomorrow and the exercises doesn't look easy to me.

I have decided to add a new thing on my blog, I got the inspiration from one of my friends D where she writes at the end of her posts the three words; mood, clothes and music. You will see what I mean if you read the last sentences at the end of this post. I hope you don't mind for "copying" you D! ;)

Anyway, I better get started with them now so that I might have some free time later tonight.

Mood: Cold... or rather, I feel a bit cold. Is it cold in my room? I better check the thermometer in my room.
Clothes: Comfy outfit consisting of my favourite pair of woollen socks, black yoga pants, white top and my dad's old grey Nautica fleece.
Music: Yanni - In the Morning Light

One wish.

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The day is fading towards its end. This is my way of showing you that I still think of you, a little love note for someone special like you which I now will send.

If I only had one wish. What would I wish?

The thought of being near you is very tempting, I would probably wish that I could see you every day. Whenever you are around I always feel safe, I don't know what else to say.

Even though I haven't seen you for 4 months and almost 21 days I still remember every beautiful feature of your handsome face.

Your blue angelic eyes, your lovely cheeks, your gorgeous smile and last but not least your magic aura which shows the people around you that you are surrounded with such a golden grace.

I pray and hope that I will see you again. The question is just when?

I have let God's most beautiful angels watch over you day and night, now that I can't be with you, at least not tonight.

One week left.

Time really flies. I can't believe it's only one week left until we travel down to France!

I was busy working both yesterday and today so I feel quite exhausted, I guess I'm going to call it an early night.

I watched a movie called "Red Eye" with my parents earlier tonight, creepy movie! I didn't like it at all, for the people who don't know me I get scared very easily..

So scary movies/thrillers etc are not my favourite movies so to speak.

Anyway tomorrow I really need to study all day, boring. But it has to be done. Time to get rid off make-up etc, may you all have a good night!

Keyshia Cole - Let it Go.

Today's song. I haven't heard any of the songs from her new album but I can tell you that I have been listening to this particular song all day and
I love it!

It's just a little too late.

You hurt me once. You hurt me twice. I thought I could count on you and I was happy for having you in my life.

Still, you know what they say, you can't loose something you never had. We both know you never wanted to be my friend.

It was just another of your stupid acts, pretending that the friendship we had was real. You seem to have forgotten the times I invited you to my home, let you eat at my table, all those things that are important to me, I was being polite to you by inviting you, so how do you think I reacted when I heard about your plans for tomorrow, how do you think that made me feel?

After all the things we've been through I thought you had grown up this time and that you would act like an adult. But no. You just proved the opposite. Why? Because you decided to invite many of the common friends we have, including three of my best friends, shame on you.

Did you actually think that I wouldn't find out?

I now declare this thing over and done. The so called friendship we had has now ended. I take back the words and the post I dedicated to you.

You are no longer my friend, because cowards like you mean absolutely nothing to me.

Picture: DeviantArt

I could stare at this picture all day. There is a saying that "one picture says more than one thousand words" it can be said about this picture to.

The warm atmosphere. The beautiful colours. Becoming one with the wonders of nature. Have I told you how much I love autumn? :)

Terrific Thursday.

Yes that's exactly what I had today! A terrific Thursday which I spent with my closest friends. We ate lunch at this great place which apparently was Danish but the food - I loved it! I wish I remembered the name though.. I'll ask one of my friends later!

After that two of my friends left for other daily "adventures", we were four who went to eat lunch together and the two of us who were left took a long walk through Stockholm.

We walked close to the water and all the way to a place called "Djurgården" which is simply a green spot in the middle of the city (well you have to cross a bridge over the water) and what a beautiful day we had! The sun was shining and it was simply one of those perfect autumn days - I'm so angry with myself because I forgot the most important thing this morning. My camera!

Luckily I had my mobile with me but the pictures aren't as good as the ones I take with the camera so. I'm going to go there tomorrow as well, if the weather turns out to be as the weather we had today. In other words I've been walking a lot today, I feel so bad for my feet they really need to rest.

Another good friend of mine, Emma is coming up to Stockholm tomorrow and she's going to stay for the weekend. I've missed her sooo much and I am so happy that she had time to meet me tomorrow so I guess we'll be having lunch and some window shoping ;)

Anyway I think it's time for bed because like I said I am really tired and it would be nice to get some sleep. May you all have a good night!

I saw an angel.

My brother caught me on camera.. While I was dreaming/sleeping.

I sit for myself and think I'm finally here. The doors open and I leave the airplane together with a big crowd of passengers. It is my turn now, to have someone to embrace me and someone I can be near.

I walk down the endless corridor filled with joy and with struggling butterflies. I stare out in the big crowd of people who are waiting for their beloved ones to arrive. Suddenly I hear someone call my name, I turn around and see you standing there, a magic moment and so we meet again, our eyes and our smiles.

You embrace me and I find myself standing there with no intentions of letting you go. It happened once before but not this time. I'm your forever, please just don't say no.

I stare into your deep blue eyes and suddenly a tear runs down my cheek. For I am standing here being embraced by the arms of an angel there is nothing else that can make me feel less complete. I am not nervous anymore, you gave me strength and helped me to get over my fears that had made me weak.

I close my eyes and try to enjoy this short moment but when I open them again and look up to your beloved face you're gone. Slowly I realize, this was just another dream. I find myself lying in my bed, alone.

It's the final countdown.

Only 1 1/2 week left - then I'm off to Taizé, France with my friends from my church.

We'll be staying at a monastery in the heart of France together with over 3,000 people from Europe and from other parts of the world. We travel by bus - 30 hours journey! and we will stay in Taizé for four days and we will stay in Paris for 1 1/2 day.

I am hoping to meet new people and to make new friends but also to see a little bit of France meaning Taizé (a small village..) and Paris.

Anyway I have to end this post now because I just realized that Grey's Anatomy starts soon and I had to help my brother with a few things before that so. May you all have a good evening, good night!

Celine Dion - Taking Chances.

I saw the video and heard the song for the first time today and I must say that I think that Celine Dion might be ready for a comeback!

With this new video where she looks so beautiful yet so dangerous with her leather outfit and dramatic make-up I think she might be on the right track back to the top.

The sweet innocent woman who ones sang "My heart will go on" has now matured and become an adult woman who knows what she wants.

The appeareance might have changed but the voice is still the same.

Sleep tight.

I just finished watching "Desperate Housewives" and I must say that every time I watch a new episode of the show I simply can't stop smiling, why? Because I like it so much!

Haha call me crazy but I love the fact that Susan got rid of Ian. She should be with Mike and now that he is gone? What will she do? I guess we'll find out next Tuesday, I simply can't wait!

Anyway time for bed, it's going to be a long day tomorrow. Good night, sleep tight!

Together we can make a difference. Act now!

Did you know that "1.5 million children die every year from drinking polluted water"?

For some reason I was not surprised considering all the damage human kind is doing towards our nature. This is just one of the "discovered" issues people at UNICEF are talking about.

I admire their work and how they fight for the children around our globe, children that have been misfortuned to be born to a world where terrible things such as war itself still occur.

I am not saying that only one person should try to solve this, no I am suggesting that together we can make a difference. Act now!

Wishful thinking.

Once again I am lying in my bed having difficulties to fall asleep. Thoughts circulate inside my head, memories of you still lingers inside my heart, good memories I wish to keep.

For each day that passes me by I still think of you and the ways you always lightened up my day. I can't help thinking, will you ever feel the same way?

I know there was and still exists chemistry between us. If only we could meet again, have you heard of the flying bus?

It takes you wherever your heart wishes to go. I think I know where I would end up, I just hope that you won't say no.

I don't want to be left standing all alone. Not if you don't promise me that I will be able to hear your voice over the phone.

I don't know what to do with all this love I have inside. There are so many thoughts and feelings that I simply won't hide.

Maybe, just maybe I can go to sleep now. I think I figured out how.

All I'll do is close my eyes and I will be there next by your side. In this beautiful dream we'll be sitting inside your car and you'll take me out for a ride.

I smile because I can see your face. You are smiling too, for whenever I am near you I feel safe.

Hot or Not?

What is your opinion about Kate Moss' new hairstyle? I think she looks good in it!

For a few years ago I tried a similar haircut, at first I liked it but after not more than 15 minutes I realized what a terrible mistake I had done to my previous long hair. It looked awful and my head looked even more like a ridiculous football!

I will never do that to myself again. But I'm happy to see other people wearing the hairstyle and looking good in it! Have you ever done something similar? Having a bad haircut? etc..? I can't be the only one (?)

It caught me. Again.

I woke up with the worst headache ever, it felt as if I had huge elephant's running around inside my head. So I guess you could say I woke up on the "wrong" side this morning.

And things got worse. I've been sneezing all morning. Suddenly I realized that it has caught me. Again.

This annual cold I get during autumn. All I'm hoping for is that I'll get better before the trip to Taizé, France in two weeks!

So I better go upstairs and make myself a big cup of hot tea, I think I need it now more than ever.

It's the most wonderful time of the year

Picture: DeviantArt

I just finished watching "Home alone 2" with my family. I love the two movies, the young Macaulay Culkin plays an excellent role as Kevin McCallister.

This time he looses his family at the airport (a few days before christmas - the family are going to spend the holidays in Miami, Florida) and by a misunderstanding he ended up in NY (he got on the wrong plane, oh I envy him for that!)

Anyway as I was watching the film I realized that christmas is coming up quite soon! Finally, I've been waiting for so long. You see, christmas is my absolute favourite holiday during the year.

I love everything about it! The gingerbread dough, the beautiful christmas trees with all the breath-taking adornments, the tradition itself of course (very important!), the noiseless sound of snowflakes falling down from the sky on christmas morning.

To be able to share this joy with all the people you care about, the classic tradition of the romantic kiss underneath the mistletoe (I know, I'm a sucker for romance!) and there are so many other things that I love about christmas, I guess you can understand how great my passion is for this particular holiday.

Almost two months left.. I can't wait! :-)

I still think of you.

I tried my best to move on with my life after that you had left and were on your flight back to your hometown. I remember when we said our goodbyes, as soon as you had left my sight I began to cry, thinking of that day makes me feel down.

I've been over it so many times. It was the wrong moment in life to fall in love. The feelings that suddenly arose were innocent and pure like the freedom inside the heart of a white dove.

It's been 4 months and almost 2 weeks since you went away. Time has gone so fast yet I still have the same feelings like I did in May.

I wish I knew what to do so that all this pain I'm having inside my chest would go and leave me alone. It feels as if it has spread from the precious corner of my heart all the way to my smallest bones.

For it is your love that now runs through my veins. I wish you could do something and give me free reins.

Shayne Ward - If that's ok with you.

This week's song. I know, Shayne Ward has a kind of "boy band member" stamp on him still, I actually like the lyrics in the song. Especially the following words.

"I'm gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth.
I'm gonna thank your mother just for giving you birth.
I'm gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry.
If that's ok with you?
If that's ok with you?"

The song is a bit cheesy, I know. Still I actually like it. I think it's sweet. But I wonder, does this kind of boyfriend even exist...? Not in my life apparently.

Finally Friday.

It feels as if this week has gone so fast? Still it feels really good that it's finally Friday! My plans for tonight is to relax and stay home with my family, perhaps watch a movie or something.

What are your plans for tonight? May you all have a great evening!

News.

Picture: H&M Online

With less that 1 month left we're heading towards the grand premiere for the big opening of the new campaign between H&M and Roberto Cavalli.

When I logged into H&M's website online I saw the picture as seen above. As you can see the two models are on their way out of a hot sports car in the favourable colour red. The actual photo/commercial is signed Cavalli all over it, if you would ask for my opinion.

I have seen a few pictures from the collection and there might be a few things that might be interesting for me, we'll see.

But I have to say that the Zebra dress the model is wearing on this picture looks gorgeous! The big question is, when will I wear it? Or will I become like Carrie Bradshaw in "Sex And The City" - "I like my money right were I can see it... hanging in my closet."

P.S. Don't forget --> 8/11 - 2007 (the date when they will start selling the collection! D.S.

They were wrong.

It's funny because earlier today I listened to the weather forecast and they said that we would receive this years first snow today. What snow? It's been really cold yes, but there are no signs of any snowflakes outside my window? Hmm I guess they were wrong and it wouldn't be the first time...? Right?

I'm working on it.

Picture: Celebrity, Jessica Simpson

For such a long time I have been lazy and chosen not to work out regularly. The results? A bad self-confidence and a bad health. I feel so angry with myself and I have now made a new promise which I will hold on to.

I guess you can notice that I have tried to walk more and to do some kind of exercise because I have written a little bit about it here.

But I think I have found more inspiration now than I have done before, above is one example. Jessica Simpson out jogging, that's all we need. Regular exercise.

I have been out one time already this morning but I am going out again to do a shorter walk just around the neighbourhood before dinner. Have a great evening and remember to exercise for your health and your entire body's sake!

Rise & Shine.

I woke up for almost two hours ago and I feel like I'm ready to go out for my power-walk, I think I will convince my mother to join me!

Have you seen what a beautiful day it is today? Nothing but sunshine which means that all the lovely colours in the trees will be glowing as we will pass them by. One of the things that has made my day during this early morning..

As some of you might see I'm in a great mood today! Partly because of the beautiful weather which has made me "rise & shine" but also because of another thing..

I might reveal something about it later today because now I'm putting on my shoes and I'm going out to enjoy the day! May you all have a beautiful day.

No longer hard as ice.

Picture: DeviantArt

I just realized something. You can't break my heart. It's liquid because it melted when I saw you.

Last night.

The smell of your skin still lingers on me now. Last night was amazing and I wish it could have lasted longer. Is there a way to repeat what happened between us besides dreaming about it in my dreams, if there is, please tell me how.

I tried calling you earlier today. I heard your voicemail and realized that you had turned it off. Perhaps it was for the best because I really had no clue of what I was going to say.

The way our bodies moved on the dance floor and the way we kissed is still on my mind. I feel so lucky that I have met you. Still, all I can think of now is how scared I am that you will leave me all behind.

I could have danced all night long. The way my hips moved towards your direction filled my body with desire. I am still listening to one of the melody's that were played during the evening last night, the tunes and the lyrics that I remember the best, our song.

What happens now? I feel so lost in nothing but confusion. Lately I have had no luck within this area and I've been feeling so low.

But then you came along and lightened up my soul. Your big smile and your shining eyes made a big impression on me. For a short moment I did not feel the emptiness I have felt for some time, not to mention this deep hole.

I just hope that I will see your beautiful face once again. For yesterday I experienced things I will never forget. I would love to have a cup of coffee with you, I just wish you could tell me when..

The Row: by Mary Kate and Ashley Olsen

Most of you have probably already seen it but I just had to post it here in my blog too.

I'm talking about the smashing sisters, the Olsens and their own design which is seen on the video above for their own brand "The Row".

So simple yet so hot! I love it. I wonder when us mortals can find these beautiful clothes in our stores...?

Wild night.

Yesterday turned out to be a long day not to mention a long night - I came home around 4.30 AM and didn't fall asleep until 5 AM.

I helped a friend to my family and her boyfriend during the evening because they had a party at their apartment in town. A total number of 30 people came to their home and they ate delicious food which the couple had done all by themselves and in the kitchen/"bar" drinks were served by the bartender herself namely me!

I have never done anything like it before but I sure did learn a lot yesterday. My friend's boyfriend taught me how to do a few of the most popular drinks (according to him) for example, Pear-dream (Absolut Vodka with pear flavour), Kir (White wine and another dark liquid which I don't remember the name of?), Cosmopolitan (one of my personal favourites) and Cuba Libre (Coke and white rom).

The night went really fast so when they all had eaten and drinken they had decided to continue the party at a club in town so the friendly hosts and their friends (?) asked me if I wanted to join them, I was surprised considering the difference in age, I am soon to be 20 and most of the guests were above 25!

We had lots of fun, the first stop was the bar called Anglais (it is also a hotell) were had a few drinks and later we ended up at White Room (famous club in Stockholm) were we danced until 3 in the morning..! In other words it was a wild night.

For all those cold days this winter.

Here it is! My new darling, welcome to my closet! Like I wrote yesterday it is a "look-a-like" to the sweater Stella McCartney did for this season, A/W 2007.

I bought it yesterday when I met up with my friend T and we both ended up buying this warm and comfortable sweater! My guess is that this sweater will be sold out in only a couple of days if not only yesterday? I heard from the staff in the store that it came in this Thursday so it had only been out for one day?

Haha I guess that's what happen when you live in a big city such as Stockholm where there are thousands of women who would kill to be able to buy this particular sweater, luckily I did not have to do that since there were 3 sweaters on the table when I found it.

Anyway today I'll be studying for a couple of hours but then I will head out towards Alvik (1 hours of travelling from where I live) where I will be working as a waitress at a private party of a close friend of my family. So it will be a long night.. I hope you will have a great day!

Fun Friday.

Yes I must say that I had a fun Friday today! I met up with T, an old friend of mine. We went to Gallerian, (a big mall in the middle of Stockholm) where we ate a delicious lunch.

Afterwards we ended up in a few stores (H&M, Wedins and Zara) where T had found this gorgeous sweater which happened to be a look-a-like to one of the sweaters that Stella McCartney did for this season!

We both fell in love with it so we simply had to buy one for each other. (I'll post a picture of it tomorrow!) But I must admit that we were both pretty tired when we went home later in the afternoon.. And I still am, so this is good night! Sleep tight.

New dreams. New goals.

This could actually be me in a few years from now. For so long I have dreamt about having a job where I can help people who live under difficult circumstances, preferably in third-world countries.

I went online to read more about the organization UNICEF and to find out what it takes to become a member of their team.

The picture above is taken of a young woman who works at the National Headquarters of UNICEF in New York city. What an amazing opportunity it would be if I ended up there..

Anyway I think I have found my goal now so all I have to do is keep on searching for more information and to find out what type of education one needs to have to be able to qualify to be able to get the job.

Have a great day!

Exhausted.

After almost 4 hours of walking in town I also ended up at a long walk with my father to simply enjoy the beautiful weather we had today! Talking about the perfect "autumn day".

The time is not 10 PM but I feel completely exhausted. So I guess this will be the last thing I post for today. May you all have a good nights sleep!

Today's note.

I miss you.

I have searched for the truth within my heart. I believe that knowing yourself is a special yet beautiful art.

For many nights and days I have had enough time to think it over. It is time for me to confront myself and stop hiding underneath this stupid cover.

After all this time I thought everything had changed for me inside. I was wrong and the reason for why I am writing this is because I don't want to hide.

I miss you and that is nothing but the truth. I still pray for you late at night, hoping that you one day will find your beloved mistress, your life companion and a true friend.

For it hurts inside of me knowing the fact that this particular woman will never be me, my heart is aching can't you see?

Anyway it feels good that I have finally said it. This is my heart speaking, every little bit.

I will treasure every moment we have spent together. I promise you this, I will always be here for you, for good times, for bad times no matter the weather.

For this is my confession: I still think of you. If you only knew how much I miss you..

Today's plans.

Good morning to you all, I hope you slept well. I can't believe the time is 11 AM? I have a full day planned today so this is my schedule of the things I need to do:

♥ 11.30 - 12.00 - Run a few errands with my mother, including buying groceries.
♥ 12.30 - 13.00 - Lunch
♥ 13.30 - 15.30 - Study Biology
♥ 15.40 - 16.40 - Study Psychology
♥ 16.45 - 17.15 - Eat a light dinner and get ready to leave the house around 17.30
♥ 17.50 - 20.50 - Babysit for two little girls
♥ 21.30 - I will be home again and get ready for bed (brush my teeth etc.)
♥ 22.00 - 22.15 - Continue reading "Pride & Prejudice" (in English of course!)
♥ 22.16 - ... Good night!

That's it. My entire day planned for every hour and minute of the day. What are you doing today?

Lunch.

This is a picture which I took last summer of one of the many delicious dishes my father has made!

It is a simple salad with chicken, a few tomatoes and a few slices of cucumber and on top of it a lovely sauce (I don't remember what it was made of but it was good!!)

So why am I posting this picture of a delicious meal? Haha well perhaps because I'm going to try to find the recipe and make it my lunch for today! Have a great afternoon!

Don't give up.

There are so many things I wish I could say to you. Among them the most important words above all, I love you. ♥

For we both know I have made many irresponsible mistakes. From the bottom of my heart I beg for your apology and I am deeply sorry if I have caused you any difficult heartaches.

We all know that you are a fighter, a person who always stands up to protect the ones you love. Please don't give up, you are far too precious, we love you in the same way FN loves it's white dove.

For they fight for peace around the world. I believe in you, I give you my word.

Life may seem difficult now. We are here to support you and we will work it out somehow.

We will always be here for you. This thing I promise you.

I will say it one more time, don't give up. I will try to help you in the best way I can, it can be big things but also smaller things such as pour your morning tea in your favourite cup!

We love you so don't you dare give up. ♥

Autumn, my favourite season.

Finally autumn is here. For it is my favourite season, this is my confession to you my dear.

Finally the leaves in the trees in my neighborhood have changed colours. This morning I stayed out for almost two hours.

The cool wind and the golden leaves were whirling around. I wish you had been there and listened to the beautiful melody sang by nature itself, oh it was a breathtaking sound.

For it is during days like these I appriciate life itself more than I use to. If you only shared my thoughts and loved autumn as much as I do. Then I'd know a place where we could go to..