Suddenly.

Suddenly I realize how much you really mean to me. I remember all those times when you were around and how hard it was for me to breath.

The time was just not right. Still I had to confront my heart and let all the feelings out into God's light.

I tried my hardest to act like myself every time you were close. I just want you to know that you once held a very fragile rose.

Suddenly I find myself smiling every time I hear your name. How can it be possible that I still feel the same? Suddenly I realize how happy you always make me and the way of feeling so alive. If only you could see my bright shining eyes.

Suddenly I believe again and I find my tears streaming down my face like the autumn rain.

For now you are not near me but instead thousands of miles far away. I just wish there was something you could say.

I miss the way you always made me laugh and smile. If the distance between us only had been one mile...

Suddenly I find myself smiling every time I hear your name. How can it be possible that I still feel the same? Suddenly I realize how happy you always make me and the way of feeling so alive. If only you could see my bright shining eyes.

Memories of African Madonna.

Picture: DeviantArt

For a few years ago my previous choir organized a big concert which was held in our church where I live. They called it "African Madonna" where the choir sang different songs about Africa in English but also in other languages that are used in different parts of the big continent.

The concert was a big success and I loved all the songs that we sang. Back then I was only 10 years old and I desperately wanted to sing the first solo in a specific song called "African Madonna" - the song which also named the entire concert because it was so popular. But I was too young and my voice had not developed to a stronger and more grown-up voice like the one I have today.

My former music teacher told me that they are planning to do it again and this time she asked me if I wanted to take the first solo. I am so happy that she remembered me and how much I wanted to sing that solo that she even decided to ask me about it. I don't know when it will occur, probably next spring but I am very happy and excited about it!

I wanted to share the good news with my dear readers and let you listen to a recording of the actual song I will be singing which was recorded during the previous concert where the women who sang the two solos touched every heart and soul in that particular room of the concert with their beautiful voices.

Click here and enjoy one of my absolute favourite songs in the world.

Sunny Sunday.

After a long day yesterday of nothing but rain the sun finally decided to come out today and I must say that it made me happy when I woke up this morning when all I could see was how the sunlight glimpsed through my window.

Besides, my entire family woke up on the "right side" this morning (that is very unusual..) and we had a big happy family breakfast where my mother made us delicious American pancakes for breakfast. Haha almost like in a Hollywood movie or some cheese commercial as seen on the TV. But I love my family, they are the best. ♥

Anyway it's Sunday meaning cleaning/tiding the rooms, studying, a short visit to the church and take a lovely walk in the cool but sunny evening where the sun lightens up the golden leaves on all the trees and bushes.

Well that's basically what's on my schedule for today. I feel so bad for my feet though. I went out dancing on Friday, walked through the entire Skansen yesterday so I guess they really deserve to have a "day off", I think I will do a nice foot bath later tonight and "spoil" them a bit ;) Haha, so what are your plans for today?

Party!

May I present to you all this is my new friend Kiril from Adelaide, Australia! My friends and I met him last night and I must say that he turned out to be a crazy but at the same time hilarious kind of guy! What a great night we had..!

Haha as you can see my friends and I had a great evening yesterday since we went out partying! We danced and mingled all night and it was very hard to wake up at 8 AM since I fell asleep around 3 AM.

Unfortunately I had to babysit 3 children today so that is the reason for why I had to get up so early to be with them all day at Skansen in Stockholm (big park with loads of animals etc..)

Anyway so I'm planning to go to bed early tonight and sleep..! Haha I've been longing for it the entire day. So may you all have a good night, sleep tight!

Exhausted.

I came home for about one hour ago and I must say that I am completely exhausted. I've been away on a rehearsal with the choir I'm in and we sang for almost 3 hours tonight so my throat hurts so much.

Anyway I'm planning to get ready for bed now perhaps I'll post something more, I'm in the mood for writing something special so we'll see if I have the energy to do so. May you all have a good nights sleep!

I found it.

It feels as if I have been looking for a black beret for so long time and today when I went in to a H&M store in the middle of Stockholm I found one!

I was so happy and I simply had to buy it and bring it home. I feel so French when I'm wearing it and I love it! Haha. Time for dinner! Talk to you guys later!

New banner.

I made a new banner with pictures from the film "Pride & Prejudice" so dear readers please tell me, should I keep it? Or should I go back to the old one?

Inspiration... Ashley Olsen.

She is the lady who has it all. A great carrier, a great lifestyle and a great taste when it comes to style and fashion. (Can you imagine her wardrobe?! I would love to visit it sometime.) Here name is Ashley Olsen.

Anyway so this is how I would love to look today. I believe this picture was taken in NY during the fashion week. The elegant combination of the black jacket, the simple white t-shirt and those hot red lips, it is definitely a big wow!

Special day today.

When I looked into my calendar this morning I started to laugh when I saw what date it is today. Suddenly I realized what a special day it is today because I turn 19 years and 9 months today!

So I guess there's only 3 moths left until I turn 20.. Wow, it is a big step. Because at that age people will see me as a "real" adult. Time really does fly. Anyway time for some lunch! Have a beautiful day.

A surprise to my beloved ones.

Picture: One of my previous rhubarb pies

Within my family there has always been someone who has loved to cook or to bake. My grandmother always liked to cook to her friends and family and I believe that is the reason for why my mother has adopted that tradition by always cooking lovely meals but her gratest passion in the kitchen is to bake.

I must have inherited that special "bake-gene" from my mother because I always enjoy it while I'm in the kitchen baking something special.

Anyway so I decided to surprise my beloved ones tonight by baking one of my favourite recipes, namely a rhubarb pie!

It is delicious and you can eat it together with ice cream, whip cream or perhaps with custard - it is all up to you to decide.

Anyway but I realized that I need some ingredients so I better be off and buy a few things before I start with it. I will post the recipe later tonight. Have a great afternoon!

Nothing has changed.

In a blink of an eye I suddenly realized that somewhere deep inside of me you still mean a lot to me. Hearing from you again it just opened up my eyes and finally I can see.

I thought I had ended that chapter of my life. I thought I had gotten over you but now I see that all of this was just another stupid lie.

All the time we spent together and the memories that were created. It is a strong feeling, a feeling that I guess will never be defeated.

I didn't realize how much I miss your charming face and the thought of you around me which always made me feel safe.

Somehow I always knew that you would protect me. I just wish both of us could have seen.

We both cared for each other exept we couldn't show anything, it was simply the wrong place and time. Yes here's another rime.

Anyway as I open up my memory-book which I keep inside of me I see your face and how it lightens up my heart. I just wish there was a solution to this situation I am in, I am really trying to come up with something clever, yes I need to show you I'm smart.

We'll see what happens next. This is the end of my poem, my words to you and my text.

May God's angels keep an eye on you throughout the night. Sweet dreams my beloved friend, sleep tight.

SATC - the movie!

Finally! The process of making the famous TV series "Sex and the City" into a movie has begun! The gorgeous four ladies are now working on the movie which will have premiere at the end of next summer.

I have seen a few pictures from the different scenes from the movie, the picture above of Mr. Big (Chris Noth) and the legendary Carrie Bradshaw (Sarah Jessica Parker) can be found here. I love the dress she is wearing, not to mention the cool black leather belt! I can't wait until next summer..!

I can't stop dreaming about..

.. New York! I have wanted to go there since I was around 11 years old which is when I started to become more interested in travelling to different cities. I have written about it here before and I guess I won't stop until I finally end up over there..!

My beloved friend Emma and I have discussed it! So we'll see what happens, perhaps we'll be able to go there next summer, who knows?

Anyway I am more than happy with my new hair-style! I did not cut it because I have decided to let it grow because I want to have long hair again! I miss it..

Instead I let the hair stylist do a few highlights in my hair, just to lighten up my colour a bit and the result was gorgeous! (I'll try to take a photo and publish it later!) So all my thoughts of going to a darker hair colour have disappeared, I'm not ready for it yet, perhaps next fall.

Sorry I need some energy so I'm off to the kitchen to make myself a nice smoothie! Have a great afternoon!

An appointment with my hair stylist.

Yes tomorrow morning at 10 AM I will be sitting in a black and comfortable chair because I have an appointment with my hair stylist. I have not decided what to do with my hair but I better do something!

I will try to take a few "before and after" pictures if I have enough batteries on my camera? (Need to check that!) Anyway I off to bed because I am really tired.. May you all have a good night's sleep! Ciao!

Pizza.

It feels as if it's Friday today! I have been studying in the morning and in the afternoon I went out jogging. It's good to have some time on your own when no one can disturb you sometimes. This is my way of "escaping" from reality, at least for a while.

Anyway we're going to eat dinner now, pizza!! It's been a long time since we ate it here at home so my brothers and I (or actually my youngest brother and I) are thrilled to have it!

(My other younger brother is out dining with his beautiful lady, such a cute couple who celebrates their two first months together today so congratulations!) :) Time to go.. Have a great evening!

Keira Knightley for Chanel.

Keira Knightley is officially the new face for Chanel's perfume Coco mademoiselle.

Other celebrities such as Nicole Kidman and Kate Moss has done it before but now it is Keira's turn and I must say that the video and the photos they have created in this campaign are absolutely breath-taking! See it for yourself!

Late lunch.

I just ate a late lunch. Nothing specific but it tasted good considering I was the one who cooked and prepared it.

Anyway the "get-to-gether" thing I went to yesterday was fun. I met some old friends and I met a few new faces too. We made great toasts and watched the movie "Knocked up" (which I saw for a few weeks ago) but like I said it was fun.

I came home around 11.30 PM so I was really tired and went straight to bed. So today I will be studying some psychology, it is such an interesting subject! I love it! However I have no plans for tonight.. We will see what happens! Have a great afternoon!

Why can't be just be good friends?

Picture: DeviantArt

I find it hard to explain all the feelings you woke up inside of me as we met on the train yesterday.

We talked for one minute or two and suddenly it felt as if there was nothing else to say.

I saw that look in your eyes. As you became silent I became nervous and it killed all the struggling butterflies.

I miss the friendship we had before everything got complicated and ended all wrong. Once again I am listening to another sad song.

I actually thought I had forgotten everything about you. Yet here I am even more in love with you.

Yes it all started like any other summer fling but it grew stronger inside of me. I really do care for you, why can't you see?

I am scared for tomorrow evening because I know we will meet again at another reunion. I better remember not to eat dinner if the dish contains onion.

I just wish I knew what to do. I am confused and my heart is aching so please tell me what to do.

There you left me when you suddenly went off the train and ran to meet your friends. Once again I stood still while I saw you and how you walked away.

That is when I realized that you had now left me in a far more worse condition than I have ever experienced before. My heart had been broken once again.

I just wish that we atleast could have been good friends.

Good night.

What a great evening! I must say that I really like it at the choir I started for a few weeks ago. The people are being far to kind to me and there is a good spirit in the room that we practice in.

Anyway I have to go to bed early tonight because I need to get up early in the morning. So I wish you all a good night, sleep tight!

Inspiration... Jennifer Aniston.

Picture: Ebba's blog

I have always liked Jennifer Aniston's classic style. Here is a clear example of it (see picture above) blue jeans, white knitted sweater and a pair of Uggs.

I have always thought that those boots/shoes look very comfy! So perhaps I will buy a pair for this fall?

I really don't care if people say that they are not popular anymore because I would still wear them if I like them and if they are comfortable. In the end that's what really matters.

What happened yesterday?

For some weird reason I had no energy last night which is why I did not write a post.

Anway what happened yesterday? I went to town and visited the library to find a few history books and I also met up with my friend Clare and took a coffee with her.

It was fun and it felt as if we talked for hours! Which often happens when you meet up with good "girl" friends.. :) So much to catch up, if you know what I mean?

After dinner I ended up in the couch and I watched Grey's Anatomy with my youngest brother. I believe they also started a new season now? Anyway it was a good episode!

I have to leave you now, I'm going out jogging! Have a great day!

Finally a new season of..

Desperate housewives! Yes I have waited for it for so long and tonight, in fact, within one hour I will be watching it on channel 5.

I wonder what crazy things Gabrielle will be doing in tonight's episode? Btw, don't you just love the picture of her above? I love it!

So remember 9 PM on channel 5 don't forget it! :)

§ Beauty tips 1: Do you know your skin type?

Awful. I hate when it happens. I woke up with a bad hair day this morning. No matter how many different hairstyles I tried it simply did not look good so I decided to ignore it. (Which is not easy but after a while you get used to it, luckily I don't get it that often so..)

Anyway as I wrote yesterday I spent a few hours in town today with my mother. We both bought a few things and I was very pleased when I got home with a new set of products for my face.

When it comes to face products I believe I have tried almost every brand both cheaper and more expensive ones such as, Clerasil, Clinique and Biotherm etc.

My experience is that the most important thing is to investigate what type of skin you have first and then go out and look for something that suits you and your skin well.

I made that mistake who thought I knew what kind of skin-type I have and then bought the wrong products, to strong for my face. This is when I bought the products from Clerasil and Clinique.

The first option was a cheaper alternative if you compare it with the second alternative. But both of them are really strong, I would say too strong for most young women's faces. I was not satisfied with neither one of them after that I had used them for almost 1 1/2 year.

Today I have two brands which I like and use all the time, Nuxe and Biotherm. I use Nuxe cleansing gel to rinse of make-up and the Biotherm products when it comes to make-up (their concealer is the best! You can read more here just so you know it is written in Swedish..) Sorry I have to go, time for dinner! Ciao!

Picture: DeviantArt

"I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.

I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all."

Kat Stratford (Julia Stiles) in "10 Things I Hate About You"

New purchases.

I spent a few hours studying in the morning and afterwards my mother and I went to one of the malls nearby and went for some shopping! Although I did not buy anything because the idea was to shop with my mother and only buy things for her!

So we ended up with a new jacket, a pair of shoes (gorgeous black leather shoes!) and a few other things. Tomorrow it's my turn! So I am going to look for some big and comfortable sweaters á la Stella McCartney but I am also hoping to find a black beret! (I envy Emma who already bought one from Tommy H. I am hoping that I will find one too!)

Anyway I hope you'll have a nice evening!

Rain

Picture: DeviantArt

It feels as if it's been raining for so many days. This is what I love about autumn, the rainy days when all you can hear is the sound of all the thousands of raindrops falling towards the window.

I have spent so many hours on tiding up my room and going through papers which I no longer need.

Anyway I guess I will make myself a nice cup of tea and I will either enjoy reading "Pride & Prejudice" or I will watch a movie with my brothers. I wish you all a pleasant evening!

Slow Sunday.

Another week has passed us by. Time really flies. Once again my room looks like a big dumpster! I hate it but then again I guess I am to lazy to do something about my bad habbit.

No I always end up on Sunday afternoon cleaning it. So I guess that's what I will do today, but first I need to take a shower. Have a great day!

A brand new appartment please?

I adore the appartment and the style seen on the pictures above. The gorgeous walls, the beautiful painting of Audrey Hepburn and the black pieces of furniture.

Where did I find these amazing pictures? And where can you find more inspiration to your new appartment? Well is it not obvious..? IKEA of course! :) Have a great night!

Sleepless in Stockholm.

It's been a lovely evening with a great dinner (all credits to my mother!) and for some reason I still have so much energy in my body? (Perhaps because I slept until lunch?)

Anyway so I decided that I will watch a movie before I'll go to sleep. It's been a while since I saw my favourite movie, "Pride & Prejudice" so I believe I will end up watching it.. May you all have a good nights sleep!

In the arms of an angel.

Picture: My own work (Click on it for a bigger and better view!)

All this time I have been waiting for that second chance. You would take my hand and we would enjoy one last dance.

Once you swept me over my feet. Your sweetness and your charm convinced me that I finally could feel complete.

For so long I had felt as if I was not good enough. Previous relationships had ended in a bad way were love suddenly had gone from being pure and innocent like a sweet summer breeze and gone to a game were the players had to be tough.

For the short time we had together it felt as if I was lying in the arms of an angel. I had been blessed to have met you, it truly felt like an evangel.

All this time I have hoped that you would change your mind and that you would see. The precious thoughts of you that I keep inside my heart. I know I would have given you my soul, yes every part.

Although I must say that my candle that has kept my hopes and dreams of us two reuniting is slowly fading away. The flame is getting weaker and weaker for each day that passes us by, I just wish this could end in another way.

A tear runs down my cheek. Suddenly I feel so wounded that now I have become weak.

I have decided to end this chapter of my life. Even if it hurts as if my heart had been hit by a sharp knife.

Still I will never forget our precious moments and the short time we had together when it felt as if I was lying in the arms of an angel.

And that precious angel was you. ♥

Busy week.

It feels so strange not to have been writing in my blog the last couple of days. The reason for it is simple: I have had a busy week, if you could call it that.

I don't know why but I have had loads of things to do among them I have been studying, run errands, met friends and last night I even went out clubbing! (It feels as if it's been a decade since I went out dancing)

Anyway so last night my girls and I went out to this great were we danced and mingled all night. I believe I came home around 3.30 AM and I slept until 12 AM..

I am not the kind of person who gets a hangover after a nights partying but instead I often wake up with a lot of pain in my feet. Yes I am a fashionable young female who loves to wear high heels! Which I believe explains everything when it comes to the "pain" in my feet I always have the next morning.

The plan for tonight is to stay in and have a nice and comfortable evening with my family. I believe my mother said something this morning about having tacos for dinner..? Yay! It is my favourite so that will totally "make" my evening!

I hope you all had a wonderful week and that you will have a great night tonight, whether if you are going out with your friends (like I wrote in the beginning of this post; I did yesterday!) or if you are staying in watching a movie or something together with family members etc.

A beautiful library.

Picture: The New Library of the Royal College of Physicians of Edinburgh

There is something special about visiting an old library. To be able to walk from bookcase to bookcase where all of our times literature and history has been carefully taken care of.

I went to probably the biggest library in Stockholm today, "Stockholms stadsbibliotek", but I am not sure whether if it is the oldest one? I have to investigate it and I will get back to you with more information later.

Anyway I love visiting libraries. The silence and the peace inside the building it makes me feel safe and calm. Still I would love to visit an old library as the one seen on the picture above. Perhaps the next time I visit England? :) I can assure you that I could have stayed there an entire day.

What am I to you.

I wish you could tell me what I have done wrong. I wish you wanted to be here and listen to my song.

For my heart is aching for your love and affection. Still it feels as if I lost the right direction.

The feelings I have for you has made my blind. Why do I have this feeling that you have chosen to leave me far behind.

I simply don't want to let go. I just wish you could see that I miss you so.

I wish I knew how long I can wait. It feels as if I am starting to hesitate.

Like I have said before nothing has changed inside of me and you still have the key to my door.

That special door that goes to my heart. A special key to a certain part.

Only you have access to that door. Please hold on tight to it and don't drop it on the floor.

All I wish is that you could tell me what I have done wrong. For I still think of you and that is how I would like to end this song.

Britney Spears comeback.

Here it is. Britney Spear's new song, her comeback to the music world. It is called "Gimmie More" What do you think about it? Is it a hit?

I hate being sick.

It is probably one of the worst things in the world. Being sick. My throat still hurts and I have no energy in my body. I feel so helpless. This is my confession: I hate being sick.

All you can do is rest. At the beginning it feels comfortable but later after one or two days it suddenly becomes so boring. All I really want right now is to get rid of this cold and get better as soon as possible.

Coming up.

For some of you it might sound strange that I already made plans for the next weekend. Still if you are a big Jane Austen fan you would not miss to see one of the newest films that has been produced and that has its premiere (in Sweden atleast..) this friday - 14th of September.

It is called "Becoming Jane" where Anne Hathaway (also seen in "The Devil wears Prada") plays Jane Austen herself.

A little note for all men out there who might be reading this post: This is a typical "chick-lit" so if you do not like "girl movies" then I am afraid this film might not become one of your favourites..

Anyway I will try to find some tickets and I will probably end up at SF with my girlfriends on friday, will I see you there?

You've got a friend.

I wish there was something I could say or do to make all the pain you have inside your heart go away. It felt weird to stand in front of you today when I didn't find a word to say.

I wish you would let me in so that I could help you to share this big grief. I would never try to take control over anyone's life instead I would let that person continue being chief.

I have never lost anyone the way you have now. Still I try to show sympathy even if I don't know how.

I know you will be okay. You have a good heart who only wants what's best for people and therefore you will make your life happen according to your own way.

I hope you know that I will always be there for you. A friend to count on, a friend to rely on and a special friend who would do almost anything just to see a smile on your face.

All I want you to know is that you've got a friend.

Grief.

Picture: DeviantArt

"Grief knits two hearts in closer bonds than happiness ever can." Alphonse de Lamartine.

We meet again.

This morning I had the opportunity to meet up with my group of friends who I spent two great weeks with in Strömstad (close to the western archipelago).

I also must add that it was wonderful to see my beloved friend Emma again who came up to Stockholm to be here over the weekend. I am already looking forward to your next visit to Stockholm! Hopefully we will be able to see each other more then!

I realized how much they all had grown since we saw each other back in August. Still they had those happy faces :) Anyway I think I will go and make some tea.. Anything for my sore throat! Have a great afternoon.

Me singing at the Diploma Ceremony.

I did not think that anyone had noticed the video I was trying to publish here earlier today on my blog but apparently Diana had seen it very briefly!

Unfortunately I had some problems with it but now it seems as if everything is ok! So for those who missed the great evening yesterday, here is a glimt from one of my perfomances during the evening! The song is called "They can't take that away from me" Enjoy!

(P.S. You may find it on youtube as well I believe if you search for "Me singing at the IBO Diploma Ceremony" D.S.)

Yesterday evening.

Picture: Taken during the evening yesterday. Here we are "almost" the entire class of 2007 all lined up in our school's assembly hall.

I had a great time yesterday evening at the big ceremony at our school. I feel so sorry for all of who who missed it (I am referring to my former classmates who decided not to show up?)

Anyway we talked and eat great food and enjoyed each others company. Thank you so much IB2 for decorating the assembly hall - it was breathtaking with all the beautiful flowers and the candles which I believe set the positive atmosphere in the big room.

I had the opportunity to meet many familiar faces, former IB candidates so to speak and other new faces I have never met before. I also sang my two songs and I believe it went ok! I hope people enjoyed it.

It was interesting to hear what people are doing now 10 years after that they finished the IB Diploma Programme and what other classmates are planning to do in the near future. Like I said I had a great time!

Today's plan is to babysit later tonight. The weather is grey and it's been raining the entire day. I woke up with a sore throat this morning, I believe it has to do with the fact that I had to sing yesterday.

Perhaps it was not the best thing to do but anyway I am going to drink some warm tea now and hopefully I will feel better tonight. Have a great day!

Would you have walked me home?

As I was walking home tonight looking up at the clear sky and admiring all the beautiful stars above. I thought for one second that I had seen a snow white dove.

Once again I was walking home all alone. I was by myself so I picked up my phone.

I realized that I had looked up your number. It was really cold and the autumn breeze had softly touched my cheek, for one moment I wish I had brought another jumper.

Anyway I was on my way to call you. I don't know why but somehow I simply wanted to hear you.

For I know that every time I hear your voice something inside me tells me that there is nothing to be afraid of. Not even such a silly thing such as love.

Sometimes it may turn your world upside down. The city you were born and brought up in suddenly feels like a strange town.

All I know is that while I was walking home earlier tonight I just wished I had seen your guiding light.

There are so many things I want to say. Still I am terrified of how you will react and the most frightening nightmare would be to see you walk away..

International Baccalaureate - 10th anniversary

Picture: This is the old, former IB symbol we had before they changed it unfortunately I could not the find the new one but atleast this is how our IB-sweaters look like, the symbol we carry on our backs.

This year our school celebrates the 10th anniversary of having the diploma programme; for it has been 10 years since they started with the so called IB-classes at the school.

The "IB" stands for "International Baccalaureate" but for all of you who might wonder, who are they? What is so special with this diploma programme? The following quote is taken from the IBO's website at www.ibo.org and will hopefully explain it to you;

"The IB is a nonprofit foundation, motivated by its mission, focused on the student. Founded in 1968, we currently work with 2,119 schools in 125 countries to develop and offer three challenging programmes to over 565,000 students aged 3 to 19 years."

Tonight we will celebrate this anniversary by gathering all the former students who have graduated from our school, including "newcomers" as myself since we graduated in May 2007, by being present at a big fiest held by the school in our assembly hall to share our different experiences and memories from our three years in the programme at our school.

The first class graduated in 1997 and since then there have been 10 other classes who have graduated and taken part of the so called "IB spirit" in our school.

The teachers asked me if I wanted to perform a few songs during the evening which I gladly said yes to although I am still sick from my cold but please cross your fingers for me tonight because I will try and do my very best and I am afraid I cannot do more than that.

Anyway I need to practise the songs a little more so I better be off now, have a great afternoon and I will try to take some pictures tonight and maybe I will show them to you tomorrow here on my blog. Ciao!

Thoughts of you on a beautiful day.

What a beautiful day. The sun is shining outside my window and I just saw a bird fly away.

Despite the fact that I am not feeling well, I still remember your body and clothes scent, oh that wonderful smell.

On Sunday we will meet again. In the big crowd of people I will try to see you, my beloved friend.

For this Sunday it will be four weeks since we got back. So many memories and so many stories and there are a lot of things I lack.

No one is perfect. I hope you don't see me as another subject.

I wish I could turn back time and do all the things I have said and done undone. For all of these days that has passed us by it has felt as if you have been gone.

I still think of you, day and night. Sometimes I pray for you that you will find your inner strength so that you might find your guiding light.

So far it has been a beautiful day. I just hope that you could see that I still feel the same way..

It caught me.

What do I mean with this headline? Well as you can guess if you look at the picture above I believe that a cold has caught me.

I woke up feeling very poorly and my entire body felt so weak. I had no energy at all. It is really awful since I have so many great things to look forward to the weekend!

But no worries I will not miss them unless I wake up with fever or something *touch wood*

Anyway so I better get some rest today and drink lots of tea or are there any other solutions of how to get rid of such a light cold like the one I have? If you have any tips you are more than welcome to write them down in a comment or two.. :)

I hope you will have a great day and do not forget the warm clothes, because autumn is here and the evil viruses are after you so take care of yourselves! ♥ /Sofia

If only you had been here.

I find it hard not to be blue when all I have seen and heard today is raindrops falling outside my window. I had to lie down and bury my head underneath my pillow.

For today had been the perfect day to spend an afternoon together. We could have been talking and complaining about the stupid weather.

When the thunderstorm suddenly turned up and I saw all the lightnings I got scared and wished that you had been here. Among all people I would have wanted you to be near.

For whenever you are around you lighten up the room with your charm and like the sun it feels as if all the fears are slowly breaking through the daylight.

It might sound strange but I know that I would do my very best to keep you even if that meant that I had to fight.

Anyway all I really wanted to say is that I missed you today. If only you had been here.. I guess that is all I needed to say.

Black leather jacket.

All the people who are in to fashion have already seen it. The short black leather jacket is everywhere!

Both famous celebrities such as Daria; one of the world's most famous models (see picture above) and ordinary people such as myself love it and wear it during the day but also to more elegant events at night which Daria does on the picture.

For my 19th birthday my dad gave me a brown leather jacket - I love it! And I have used it allot during this year throughout all seasons.

Still to be able to complete my list of useful jackets I must find a black leather jacket! Preferably a MC-inspired jacket as seen on Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen.

I have planned a short trip into town tomorrow since I have to run a few errands so maybe I will find something. All you have to do is wait and see :)

Driver's licence.

What a grey and boring day. It rained the entire afternoon yesterday so I think that there might come more today.

Due to the boring weather I decided to deal with the theory part to be able to get my driver's licence.

Lucky for me it is not a thick book and the literature should not be any problem. But first I need to take a shower - I need to "wake up" properly! Have a great day!

For I feel safe in your arms.

For some people this might seem like an odd way to show emotions. Still I must say that I am a person who prefers to investigate all my options.

I love to write and to express myself. It is often during this time of the evening when I suddenly turn into a little magic elf.

For a short moment my hopes and dreams may fly away. Sometimes I dream that you are standing in front of me and still I have nothing to say.

I wish that you would hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm. For I feel safe in your arms.

I often wonder what you are up to. How the day has been so far and what you are going to do.

All the answers to my questions I try to find. Somehow it feels as if you left me all behind.

This is my way of opening my heart. Writing poems is a very special art.

I will soon blow out my candle and fall asleep. I hope I won't weep..

Yet another tear. Yet another fear.

For all I want to say to you is that I still think of you.

Sweet dreams, may all the angels keep you safe throughout the night. I will now close my eyes and dream of your shining light.

The dentist.

I had an appointment at the dentist today. It went really good and the dentist said that everything looked great so I could not be more satisfied.

I have heard so many stories about people who are terrified to go to the dentist. Luckily I have never experienced any "bad" moments in that special chair but I guess that there are some who have.

I feel sorry for you but hey, life goes on and remember that they are only doing their job which is to look after your teeth and to make sure that they are "healthy".

In my heart nothing has changed.

Time has run away with my thoughts and a certain feeling. I have been searching almost an entire lifetime and finally I have found what I was seeking.

For it was a special love I wanted to find. Someone I could care for and never leave far behind.

Suddenly I saw everything very clear. I had nothing to fear.

All I ever wanted to do was to show you how important you are to me. But I guess you'll never see.

Many things came in our way. I respect you that's all I need to say.

I like you the way you are. In my eyes you shine like the brightest star.

Time may have run away but the truth is that I still feel the same.

For in my heart nothing has changed.

Sweet dreams.

I am soo tired. Therefore the reason for why this post is so short. I am going to bed right this second. Sweet dreams!

Memories.

Another day is going towards its end. It feels as if I am on the mend.

Thoughts are once again running through my head. Somehow they always seem to come back at night when I lie inside my bed.

The memory of sitting next to you. The memory of having your arms around me. The memory of simply being with you..

It haunts me day and night. All I want to see is your bright shining light.

Those deep and crystal eyes. It makes me feel transparent, as if you could read me like an open book, this ain't no stupid lies.

All I wanted to say is that I still think of you. No matter what you'll do I will always be here for you.

The memories we shared I will keep deep inside.

If there is hope there is plenty of room for love.

I feel so lucky. I have seen you and met you twice this week and that makes me very happy.

The joy I felt from seeing your beautiful smile. It is something I simply cannot hide.

The moment I saw you when I walked through that door. It felt as if my knees had been hypnotized and that I was falling towards the floor.

My heart kept on beating faster and faster. Once again you had made me nervous (in a positive way!), congratulations you are now a real master.

For I have learnt that if there is hope there is also plenty of room for love. It feels as if you have untied a complicated knot inside my heart and now released a free white dove.

My thoughts of you have not changed. They have become stable like a big mountain range.

I cannot help it but I long to see you. For every time I do I can't take my eyes off of you.

Daily question.

Could I create a miracle...

if I could, what would I do

what would I do

wanna get through to you.