Monday 30 June 2008

I'm still searching.

I'm searching for someone who can hold me tight. A special someone who will be there throughout day and night.

I'm searching for someone who can fill my soul with laughter. For I have always wanted what's best for others, I guess that is one among many things that makes me a lovable sister and daughter.

I'm searching for someone who will understand me and love me for the way I am. A wise person who is to be trusted because he would never get into a difficult jam.

I'm searching for someone who will catch me before I hit the ground. A charming someone who will support my musical interest, my singing and most important above all someone who will have the patience to listen to my voice and it's special sound.

I'm searching for my better half. For I have always appreciated people that makes me laugh.

As the time pass by I will continue my searching for that special someone. One day we will meet and my heart will then tell me, "he's the one".

But for now, I'm still hoping that this day will come and until then I will continue my searching. I will continue through day and night and ignore if I'm hurting.

One day it will come true. This one special day when I will find You.

Sunday 29 June 2008

Videoblog, part I.

Thursday 26 June 2008

Certain memories never grow old.

Picture: DeviantArt

From the first day you came in to my life you swept right through me, just like a sharp arrow you went right through my heart. I had been touched by an angel who had given me inspiration to create this innocent art.

You saw me for all that I am. You turned my world upside down every time I saw your perfect smile, for in my eyes it was almost as sweet as jam.

Every time I looked deep in to your bright eyes you always met me half-way. I wonder if it still would be the same it we met today?

Perhaps it was just a sweet illusion or what if it was just a dream? Above all there is one thing you must admit, we were a great team.

So many memories that keep on spinning inside my mind. Through each day and night there is always something that reminds me of you and of certain feelings that I wish I had been able to leave far behind.

Somehow I have rejected other men that I have met after you. The truth is to be told, no one else has come as close as you.

For I truly treasured every moment I had with you. Even if I never dared to say it before you left I knew deep down in my heart how much I would miss you.

From the first day you came in to my life you swept right through me, just like a sharp arrow you went right through my heart. Please believe me when I say, you touched my heart, you touched my soul, yes you touched every important and meaningful spot.

Wednesday 25 June 2008

Finally, a day off tomorrow.

I've been looking forward to Thursday (tomorrow that is) because as you probably learnt from the title it's my day off!

My plans so far is to sleeeeep in the morning and maybe go in to town in the afternoon to see if I can find something since the sales are still going strong in all different kinds of shops all over town.

But now I'll have to say good night, my feet are hurting and my head is spinning around (I'm exhausted yes..) so have a great day/night and I'll write more tomorrow! xoxo /S

Tuesday 24 June 2008

Linkin Park - Shadow of the Day.


Today's song

Monday 23 June 2008

You can't lose something you never had.

I just realized something. You can't lose something you never had.

Now that I actually think about it, it's almost heart-breaking to realize that it wasn't even just a fling. No, in other words it was nothing.

Why am I still making the same mistakes as the ones I've already done before? Why does my heart's wounds still feel so open and sore?

All this time I've been filling my heart with hope. I just can't help feeling like such a tremendous dope.

The only person I blame for this mess is myself. For I am the person responsible for my heart's damages not to mention my poor health.

What to do next, online time will tell. I just hope that it will all turn out well. I just can't take another living hell.

I'm sorry, it's been a rough night. Tears have found their way out from my deepest wells and created a monsoon down my cheeks, let's just say it's not a beautiful sight.

This is where I leave you, I have neither strength nor energy to carry on. No, instead I will tuck myself deep down inside my bed and listen to Hans Zimmer and to one of his beautiful songs.

The way you make me feel.

Picture: Vogue

The way you make me feel safe even though you're thousands of miles away. The fact that the memory of you is still clear, it feels as if I saw you just the other day.

The way I always lighten up whenever you are online. There are so many special things about you, one of them is that you always seem to look so fine.

The way you always seem to make me blush. This is our secret, so hush!

The fact that there hasn't been a single day that I haven't thought about you since you went away. There are more than one thousand things that I wish to say.

The way you have supported me throughout day and night. The endless times I've dreamt of taking the next flight.

The fact that I have kept you in my prayers. The way that you're always with me all the way in to my bare bones, yes through all the thin layers.

The fact that I never find it hard to smile whenever you're around. The sound of your voice playing inside my ears makes my feet lift far up from the ground.

There is something special about you and the way you make me feel. Thank you for helping me figure out this life long riddle, thank you for giving me enough strength to make my heart heal.

Thank you for making me happy and for the many different ways you always make me feel.

An ordinary post.

I just realized that it's been a while since I wrote "an ordinary post".. I'm sorry for that but like I've said before I've been busy working and hanging out with family and friends. But I'll try to get better, I promise!

Monday evening again and a new beginning of a new week. My plans so far are just work work work and party on Saturday since L turns 20! Happy Birthday sweetie!

I've also started writing on a list of things that I have to bring with me when I go to Båstad, a small typical Swedish summer town on the south-western part of Sweden (8th - 13th of July) since I'm a bit of a planning-freak after all.. :P (I believe that I should blaim IB for that...)

Anyway so that's my summer, work and Båstad! I might get a few days off here and there but in the end I'll be spending most of my time at the shop (Jackpot). What are your plans for the summer?

Saturday 21 June 2008

Secondhand Serenade - Awake.


I've started to listen to this band called "Secondhand Serenade" and I think that they are really good! This is one of their songs which I've been playing on repeat this last hour.. So sit back and enjoy a great song! Good night!

Tears of the Sun.

Who said that the Sun never cries? A statement that is not meant to be trusted, for I have seen it once, actually I have seen it more than a dozen times.

Golden tears that shine like the purest silk every time they hit the ground. Have you ever experienced such a speechless sound?

Such an important and precious natural resource. One can say that together they are strong as a magnificent and powerful horse.

For together they create new life on earth, yes these are the significant tears of the sun. The feeling every time they caress my cheeks when I am outdoors is indescribable, I enjoy it even more every time I run.

Still, there are days when she shines like the brightest star. There are days when she seems to be away, even though the distance might not be that far.

For this is the time of the year when you can see her the most. During the winter she almost feels like an invisible ghost. Without her we would all be lost.

Who said that the Sun never cries? Even though she does we must not forget her unforgettable and warm smiles.

Tuesday 17 June 2008

A Midsummer's Dream.

I am speechless. I love these pictures. In my eyes this is what Swedish Midsummer is all about, living and experiencing a Midsummer's Dream.

A magic night when certain things might not be the way it seems..

Sunday 15 June 2008

Tagged!

Apparently D tagged me in a new game on her blog :)

This is how you should play this game of "tag": Post these rules on your blog. List: 3 joys, 3 fears, 3 goals, 3 current obsessions/collections, 3 random surprising facts about yourself. Tag 5 people at the end of your post by leaving their names. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog! Here we go!

3 Joys:
1. I've said it before and I will say it again. Singing. An endless passion that will never end.
2. Spending time with family and friends. Even though I forget to say it from time to time it doesn't change the fact that I truly love all of you.
3. Warm summer evenings and all that goes with it! :)

3 fears:
1. I never sleep with my bedroom door wide open. Ever since I was a little girl I convinced myself that if someone would come in to my room while being fast asleep, I would wake up if I heard the door handle open. I guess it's a bad "habit" but I simply can't get rid of it.
2. Dark water. It frightens me when I'm sitting in a boat looking down and not being able to see the bottom of the sea bed.
3. White masks. As seen on "Michael" the young man in the
Halloween movies, I believe it's easy to understand that I don't like the holiday Halloween..

3 Current Obsessions:
1. Swedish strawberries. Probably the best in the whole world ;)
2. Navy inspired clothing. Being summer and all this season means for me wearing classic pieces of clothing such as blue and white striped t-shirts/sweatshirts, light white/blue cotton shoes and add essential extra accessories such as a pair of timeless pearls (earrings) or perhaps just a thin golden necklace with a small pendant with a significant meaning behind it, in order to make it even more personal.
3. Successful barbecues including a group of close friends, good food + weather (!) and grilled marshmallows on top of that!

3 Surprising Facts About Me:
1. I don't really know how to put this down in words but I simply love surprising people (in a positive way of course!) and to make other people happy as well. To be able to see the reaction on a person's face, for me the feeling can be described as the eyes of a child on Christmas Eve when he/she sees all the present lying underneath the tree. A great feeling in other words :)
2. Many of my friends/people I know do not know that I play the instrument called "keyfiddle" or "nyckelharpa" in Swedish. I've played it for almost 8 years now and I have no plans to stop playing.
3. A fun and surprising fact about me is that sofar I've written over 100 love poems, many of them have been published here in my blog and I have now put the best ones all together to be able to publish my own collection of poems. /Sofia

P.S. I'm tagging Emma and Lovisa
and anyone else who wants to do it! By the way, this was my 777th post! :D D.S.

Last night.


L, Me and E. - The trio - Love you girls, you mean the world to me!


Me and E.

Me, R & C.

Sorry for the bad posting here in the blog.
Like I've written before I've been busy working and working day in and day out. Yesterday was no exception still I was very happy during the day because for weeks I had been looking forward to L and V's birthday-dinner at L's place that took place last night.

Above are a few pictures from the evening of me and my friends posing in front of the camera ;) What can I say, it was a great dinner and a hilarious party! We had so much fun!

Hope you also had a great weekend! /S

Wednesday 11 June 2008

Right or Wrong?

If you look closely, one can see a bright angelic light struggling within your eyes. For that is one of the most precious memories that I have saved deep inside, one special memory that always make me smile.

Still, it's the way that you left me and bereft me of my love, without a warning. Yes I remember that morning.

As soon as we had said goodbye I had to go away and find a place where I could cry. It was very difficult for me seeing you walk away and holding back my tears, you see I really did try.

For some ridiculous reason I miss you more now than I have ever done before. It's hard to believe that my heart's wounds are still deep and sore.

Even though it's been more than a year I still can't help wishing that you were somewhere near. Loosing the special contact I had with you was probably my greatest fear.

Still, here we are today with a friendship stronger than ever. I should have listened to you when you said that we would e-mail and keep in contact, after all you've always been very clever.

While talking to one of our common friends earlier today I was once again reminded of you. For one moment I closed my eyes and looked closely deep within my heart and I could see the bright angelic light that once again reminded me of you.

Here I am now, ready to fall asleep. Somehow I couldn't help myself tonight while writing this, no I simply had to weep.

Like I said, the memories of you are still strong. Could someone then please tell me, why does my mind tell me that this is all wrong?

Friday 6 June 2008

There You'll Be.

Picture: DeviantArt

"Pearl Harbour"

In the morning when you were still sleeping
I looked outdoors and saw the ground
But it's only pearls sailing
I cant take my eyes of what I've found

Good morning, the sweetest Sun's shining
I'd kiss you for lighting my way
I am having winter dreaming
And the Pearl harbour overday

Could you please wake up, darling
And lead me to jewelery's place
Necklace, rings and hearts're sparkling
You said: "Would you marry me today?"

I took my chances
Lay down and made you angels
Who were watching us having snow war

In hours you could see silence
Resting on the sky
Goodbye my day-lover, tomorrow you'll say another Hi
I knew of someone who's also mine

I am kissing the Moon, my only one
The stars are dancing barely around
He took off my necklace
And laid me down on the ground

Those pearls seemed too cold at once
So I ran back home to you
I had dreams as my partner for Winter ball
But they are boring overall
So I just ran back to you

My sweet darling's still sleeping
Anyway he's just waiting to make me warm
Pearls are now sinking and melting
It is hiding down to appear later under the spring Sun

Tuesday 3 June 2008

Looking back on what could have been.

Who knew that you could make me feel like this? Daily signs that keep reminding me of you and suddenly it hits me that there are so many things about you that I truly miss.

The greatest of them all is the way you always seem to put a smile on my face. Tonight I wish I could fall asleep in your warm embrace, for that it a place where I know I would feel safe.

I miss the way you always seem to be able to read my mind. Suddenly I find myself sitting here, thinking about all the great memories that we share and all the feelings I once had which I thought that I had left all behind.

I can't help but wondering what could have happened if you had stayed? Seriously, why did you have to fly away?

I guess this is something I will never know. Somehow I can't help it but I actually long for the next cold seasons, if you only knew how much I truly love snow! (Now that I'm born in January and all...)

Anyway it's running late. I'm out of words and I don't know what else there is to say.

I just miss our talks, the way you made me glow whenever I saw you while entering a room, the fact that you've been such a good friend all along and the fact that I never got the opportunity to sing to you, believe me I would have chosen a very special song.

For this is my heart's confession, I do think of you more than you'll ever know.

Monday 2 June 2008

Lil Wayne feat Static Major - Lolipop.

Today's song! I love the beat in this song..! Enjoy!

Early morning.

Good morning! I hope you all slept well. I'm a bit tired but I'm already getting ready for yet another week.

I don't start until 11.30 AM today so I thought I could take a few hours in town "window-shoping" before lunch :)

Anyway I better get ready, time for a shower! Have a great day!

Sunday 1 June 2008

A speech that will remain unspoken.

Picture: DeviantArt

I
t was supposed to be one of the best days of my life. A day of celebration, laughter and joy where you would raise your glass and say a few words while standing next to your beloved wife.

In many ways I had a terrific day still, when I went to bed that same night I could not help the fact that I was feeling heartbroken. For I had longed to hear your loving words, all I know today is that it will forever be a speech that will remain unspoken.

It was a long and stressful day for all of us. I remember that I convinced mom that she did not have to take me to school and that I wanted to take the bus.

Truly it was a day filled of hope and prosperity. I have and always will admire your two great hearts and the fact that you tought me all that I know about life, love and charity.

For we may have argued many times before still, today I understand your reasons and the fact that you only wanted to protect me against all odds.

There are nights when I lay awake thinking what did I do to deserve a family like you? Yes there are times when I actually convince myself that I do not deserve any of you. Still, here I am surrounded by the world's greatest people, I love all of you.

Tears come streaming down my face when I read the so called "unspoken speech". A few beloved words and the deepest point inside my heart you managed to reach.

A white little piece of paper with the speech that was dedicated to me. If only I had enough words and symbols to describe how much it truly means to me.

Many years from now when my own daughter or son will have their big day I will make sure to hold a special speech. I will prepare myself properly with a deadline of a few weeks.

Please remember you did not do anything wrong. Atleast I have this piece of paper with your words and the speech that will remain unspoken.