Last day of 2008.

Another year has almost reached its end. The year of 2008 went much faster than the previous years have done before at least that is how I experienced it. Now awaits a new year, 2009!

Let us all pray that it’s going to be a better year with less conflicts around the world. Here is a reminder to you, don’t forget that the earth, its condition and the people living on it are all parts of our responsibility.

Every act and every thought counts. Let us start the New Year by helping family/friends and most important above all let us help the people who struggle and those who find themselves to be on a difficult track in their lives. Together I believe we can all make a change and it starts right here. Are you with me?

The Pink Package.

Picture: Ebba's blog at Veckorevyn

It feels so strange to announce that Christmas is officially over, every year it's the same sad feeling, one really does not want it to be over! :(

Anyway I had a great time this year having the whole family gathered together to celebrate the special time of the year. When it comes down to this year's Christmas presents I got things that I needed but also one special gift that I've been dreaming about for a very long time, namely a special pen to write calligraphy with. I am more than happy about my gifts, after all it's the thought that counts, right? ;)

Still I can't help not to think about my birthday in January and what I might get then. Well here's a collage with good suggestions if any of my brothers/parents might stop by and read this post :) To be honest I love the fact that I can call it "The Pink Package" because even if I normally prefer black, beige or white I sometimes fall for these pink products as well.

How ridiculous it is that it can feel so amusing to actually be able to feel this childish and "girly" feeling I'm feeling right this second as my eyes enjoy the pink and pretty view of this pretty little package!

A list on a Sunday.

Mood: Tired, didn't come home until 3 AM this morning.
Done: Breakfast (check), lovely winter walk with my family
Plans: Nothing special today, relax and take it easy and maybe meet up with S
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: Piano - That's what friends are for
Reading: Nothing yet
Drinking: Water
Eating: Fruit salad
Best: It's a beautiful Sunday!
Worst: That I'm tired but I'll hopefully wake up after the shower
Weather: Gorgeous weather, finally! Nothing but sunshine :)

What friends are for.

Picture: DeviantArt

"...Keep smilin' Keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me
for sure that's what friends are for
In good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
that's what friends are for..."

- Carol Bayer & Burt Bacharach -

Birthday coming up.

It's been such a hectic day. We began with our Christmas SALE today at Jackpot and so we were busy running and helping each and every customer (well those that we had enough time to help). I'm sure we all did pretty well though so the big bosses of our company must be very pleased when they'll see today's numbers that were cashed in during the day.

Anyway, as I was staring at my calendar on the wall I noticed today's date, I will be 21 in exactly one month from today! Crazy, it feels as if I just turned 20 the other day? Time really does fly.

I'm glad it's Friday though. Tomorrow I'm going to meet up with the girls and we're going to have our own little Christmas lunch and exchange Christmas presents etc. Besides we've already started to plan the biggest and most important night of the year! Namely New Year's Eve! :) I can feel it already... 2009 is going to be a good year, that's for sure.

James Morrison feat. Nelly Furtado - Broken Strings

Today's Song. I really love this song.

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real...

Again.

Somebody stabbed my back, again. This time the dagger reached deep within my heart and now I'm filled with all this pain I haven't felt since... I don't know when.

Somebody let me down, again. I feel humiliated, I feel insecure and so I let them out, those small crystal tears that always come streaming like the October rain.

Somebody lied to me, again. I tried so hard to be all that you wanted me to be, I almost changed for you but now I'm sick and tired of our world's crazy men.

Somebody filled my lungs with tears, again. I'm cold and I find it hard to breathe because of all the pain, perhaps I should call L, my beloved friend. Maybe she can tell me how this sad story should end.

Somebody took advantage of me, once again. I can't believe I let him take the best part of me, I just realized that I'm almost running out of black ink inside my favorite pen.

Somebody stabbed my back, again. This time I really hit the bottom of the sea. All I can say, pray and hope for is that it won't happen again.

To the people of the world I say..

Merry Christmas!

A list on Christmas Eve.

Finally it's here! The day we've all been waiting for :) Christmas Eve! I'm afraid I can't write more now but I sure will later! Have a great day everybody! Merry Christmas!

Mood: So much better! It's Christmas Eve! :D
Done: Late Christmas breakfast (check!)
Plans: Celebrate Christmas with my family, church later this afternoon
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: Ashanti - Christmas Melody
Reading: Nothing yet
Drinking: Water
Eating: Nothing yet but I will later... :P
Best: It's Christmas!
Worst: No nothing like that today
Weather: No snow in my sight :(

Sick.

Picture: Google

Sorry for the bad updates! As you probably learnt by reading tonight's title I've been sick for a few days. I still haven't recovered but I'm hoping that I will get better cause by the end of this week it's Christmas Eve.. Anyway hope you had a great weekend! I should call it the night now, I'm exausted. Sweet dreams.

A list on a tensed Tuesday.

Mood: Unfortunately I'm not feeling very well, I simply couldn't sleep and so I woke up at 4.30 AM.. Awful nightmares :(
Done: Early breakfast at 5 so my stomach is hungry already!
Plans: Pay some bills, tidy up my room, finish baking, meet S later today
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: Kleerup feat. Robyn - With every heartbeat
Reading: Nothing yet
Drinking: Water
Eating: I might do myself a fruit salad soon
Best: I managed to avoid the colds that my two brothers have, poor things :(
Worst: The thoughts that kept circulating inside my head last night
Weather: Still very grey and cold

My favourite wallpaper.

Picture: DeviantArt

This is the second year that I have this beautiful picture as my wallpaper on my laptop. I found it last year while searching for Christmas pictures at DeviantArt and fell completely in love with it.

The open fire, the gorgeous tree and the perfect room makes me speechless. This is how I would love to decorate my own home later on in the future. That is if I would live in such a big house.. :)

Christmas bells are ringing.

With less than two weeks left for Christmas I've been walking around hearing some of the best Christmas songs that have been played in our speakers here at home today.

Besides, dad surprised me when I got back from Miami with a beautiful glowing snowflake hanging in my bedroom window! For so many years I've wanted some kind of Christmas adornment in my room but never really found the "perfect thing" if you understand what I mean?

Luckily my dad found it for me, so now my brothers and I have each one hanging in our windows, it looks so beautiful from the street.

Anyway I better get back to our Christmas preparations, next up I'll be baking some of these that I also made last year, do you remember? :)

One of the funniest things I've ever seen on youtube.

I only have one word for you, hilarious! You just have to check out this clip from youtube. Sweet dreams! How adorable aren't these two little boys?! :)

I smiled.

I smiled as I slowly inhaled the scent from the unique fragrance on your skin. A special scent that only you seem to have. Carefully I placed the tip of my nose on your warm neck and so my pulse skipped a beat as I gently kissed your chin.

I smiled at the way you had your arm around me as we kept walking on the street. Under your big and blue umbrella you held me close to you. I didn't dare to say it then but I thought it was very sweet.

I smiled at the way your eyes made me blush and catch my breath every time that you noticed how I couldn't and didn't want to look towards any other direction. To be honest I had struggling butterflies inside my stomach all day on that special Friday. All I can say is that you left me with a positive impression.

I smiled at the way I was amazed about how I felt when we had our various conversations about so many different things. It felt so natural and I never saw a forced smile upon your face. I kept thinking whether if this was a one time opportunity or if I would have the chance to meet with this hansom gentleman again, we'll see what the future brings.

Let's keep it elegant & simple.

Picture: Jak & Jil
Mood: Excited (!)
Done: Breakfast + shower

Plans: Work + date tonight ;)

Looking at: My laptop's screen

Listening to: Cassie feat. Lil Wayne - Official girl

Reading: Nothing yet

Drinking: Fresh pressed orange juice/water

Eating: Lunch later

Best: It's Friday!

Worst: The pain in my back (from a horse accident)

Weather: Generally cloudy with scattered showers

The start of something new.

I thought you would never call. People tend to promise things they later never keep but you kept yours since you did call me after all.

Last night's hours went so fast. Well, they usually do when one's having a blast.

I did find it hard to leave your warm embrace. On my way home I still kept thinking of your beautiful face.

I am glad that you gave me a call. In the end it means a lot more than to just receive a text, the simple gesture could make any woman fall.

Tomorrow is a new day and so we're having our first date on what's going to be a fun Friday. Considering how much fun we had last night I'm hoping that tomorrow's evening is going to end the same way.

Last night at V.

Picture: Private - Taken by L (From the left: V, M, E & me)

As you can probably see from the picture above the girls and I had a great night last night! Nothing but smiles on our pretty faces :)

I must say that we have found our favourite club here in Stockholm, "Village" aka V, plays great music from 11 PM to 5 AM (!) in other words all night long. The people that normally attend are from different parts of Stockholm besides it's also a good mix of the different ages too!

So we kept dancing all night - I didn't come home until 04.30 AM... Guess if I'm tired (read dead) today?

P as in PARTY!

I just got a text from L saying "Girl's night out? ;-)" meaning there's a party tonight! I haven't been out for ages so I think tonight can be really fun!

Anyway I better get going, hopefully L's got her camera with her! So there might be some photos here tomorrow!

Have a great day/evening depending on what time it is at your place ;-)

Only in my Juicy Couture Set.

Picture: Nelly

Call me lazy if you like because now I can actually admit it - I haven't been able to take any photos today since I realized that my camera already lost all its battery time? So I hope you can accept this picture as seen above of my comfortable Juicy Couture set that I bought in Miami.

I flew in it and I've been wearing it at home these last couple of days and I'm totally in love with it :) It might not be so super glamorous but hey sometimes comfort comes before style!

Besides these sets are expensive here in Sweden (!) and so I got mine with 30 % discount in Miami thanks to the Thanksgiving sales so I'm quite happy about it! They had so many different colours too! It felt like I was in a candy store.

Even though I was tempted to buy a cool colour I still choose the classic marin blue one because I knew that the colour would last longer (spoken in fashion terms).

Oh and I finally bought me a new charger today! As clumsy as I am I forgot my charger in Miami.. So I've been without my phone these last couple of days since we didn't have another one at home. The plans for tomorrow is Christmas shopping part II. More about that later!

Christmas presents it is!

To the people of the world I say, Good morning! It turns out that I could not finish with the list of things that I wanted to do yesterday, among them taking pictures of what I brought home from my trip to Miami but I'll try to do it during the day.

Anyway my mom and I are going shopping today, I really want to get this over and done so that I won't have to run in and out from different stores during the most hectic days of the year.

One of my brothers came in to my room my last night and asked me what I wanted for Christmas and I had no idea of what to answer...! I already have everything that I "need" so I was thinking about receiving money which I could donate to UNICEF or perhaps another organization. In that way the money would be spent wisely and hopefully for something good!

Sorry but I have to get going. I'll write more later ;) Have a great day!

Katie Holmes for TMagazine, New York Times.

Pictures: Collage made by me, pictures collected from nytimes

I just read the article "Best Supporting Actress" by Lynn Hirschberg in the NY times online and saw these beautiful pictures of Katie Holmes, styled like a true movie star.

I would love to see her new play "All My Sons" that is played on Broadway. For now it's only a dream that might come true later on.. You never know what might happen :)

A list on a Monday morning.

Mood: Positive :)
Done: Breakfast (check), gone through e-mails (check)
Plans: Help my mom to clean the house (including my room),
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: T-pain feat. Young Styles - Missing You
Reading: DN
Drinking: Water
Eating: I just ate brunch ;)
Best: It's my day off
Worst: No nothing like that today
Weather: Still cold and grey

Sleeping Beauty.

Good morning or perhaps I should say Good afternoon ?! I just saw that it's passed 1 PM.. Well to be honest I woke up really late today, like one hour ago in fact.

Luckily my headache is gone and I'm full of positive energy since I could sleep all morning :) I better get started with my things that I need to do today.

May you all have a wonderful Monday!

Exhausted.

It's been a really hectic week I must say. Coming back from Miami and after that I've been busy working almost the entire week! Trust me when I say that I'm exhausted, I even got this bad headache when I came home earlier today and it's still there bothering me.

Anyway I'm actually having a week off next week! Well almost, I only work on Friday but the rest of the days I'm free so I'm planning to do some Christmas shopping, Christmas baking, Christmas cleaning etc. So I guess one can say that I have a busy schedule anyway ;)

Tomorrow I might also show some pictures of the lovely things I bought in Miami. Oh and about the dress I wore at my cosin's wedding - it's coming! Unfortunately I couldn't take that many pictures while my uncle and cosin's professional camera man took lots of them during the wedding so I'm waiting for her to send them to me :)

I hope you all had a great weekend! I'll write more later.

Wimbledon.

Picture: Google

Next up this evening is this quite new movie I believe called "Wimbledon" starring Kirsten Dunst among many other famous actors. May you all have a great Friday! :)

Friday's List.

Mood: A bit sleepy ...

Done: Breakfast (check) shower up next

Plans: Work + celebrate dad tonight!

Looking at: My laptop's screen

Listening to: David Archuleta - Crush (Oh yes I love this song!

Reading: Nothing yet

Drinking: Fresh pressed orange juice

Eating: Lunch later

Best: It's my dad's birthday! :)

Worst: Work all weekend..

Weather: Cold and grey

I'll always be your little girl.

Picture: Balloon salon

You swept me off my feet.

A magic atmosphere is created when the music begins to play. Beautiful couples fill the dance floor, like eternal stars they shine as if they were from up above and so my soul is filled of a great desire to be able to feel the same way.

Suddenly I see a hand reaching out in front of me. I can see a tall man who invites me up to the dance floor and that is exactly how it is supposed to be.

Is he a friend or a total stranger? Slowly he swifts my body and feet across the dance floor when the thought hits me, what if this mystery man could cause my heart any great danger?

I begin to realize that I shall never be able to see his face. Somehow I know deep inside that I do belong in his warm and protective embrace.

I can feel how he looks me in the eyes, the bright window's of my soul. With one arm around me he caresses my cheek with his other hand as if to say that this was his goal.

He gave me one, two, let's just say more than three dances and so it suddenly felt as if my heart had been healed. While standing there almost dieing of curiosity trying to find out more about him I slowly realized that his lips were sealed.

An angel had been sent to me to help fulfill my dream. Together we made the perfect team. This emptiness that I carried deep inside is now gone, a feeling that you helped me defeat. Truly I'm so glad that you came up to me and swept me off my feet.

LBD.

Picture: Nelly

I know I've written about my passion for dresses that are "open" at the back many times before. So I found a new dress to fall in love with today - see the pictures above!

I'm actually considering buying it since it would only cost me 299 sek = $2496 which is reasonable I think. It's too cold to wear it now though so it would have to wait until next summer but I'm curious what do you think about it?

Is it a keeper? Or does it show too much skin? Whatever thoughts/opinions you have good or bad I'm willing to listen!

Can we do this one more time?

I try and I try to walk fast enough so I can stop looking back behind my shoulder. For every time I see your face I stop and so time reminds me of the fact that I'm getting older and older.

Truly I believe that we experienced a lot during the period of time that we shared together. Just like many times before I gave and I gave so much of myself without receiving anything back and many months later I realized that I deserve better.

You failed me and left me abandoned when you said that we'd be better off being just friends. You stopped calling me and whenever I did try to make an effort you just ignorred it, truly I hate this kind of sad ends.

I try and I try to walk fast enough so I can stop looking back behind my shoulder. Now you're standing there again, giving me that same empty look and so I turn the page and put our file of great memories in that big folder.

Certain memories are being played inside my heart once again after that I received your last call. Please take good care of me this time and don't let me fall. Now all I need to know is, can we do this one more time?

The Wedding.

Picture: The first dance as man and wife (L-A & C)

I'm home again from Miami! This vacation turned out to be one of the best vacations I've ever had! For such a short period of time we managed to do so many different things.

Together we have all cried and laughed together, danced until 3 AM in the morning, gone shopping until we literally dropped (!), enjoyed the wonderful climate I mean who would say no to sunshine and 25 + °C? But most important above all we have strengthened our family bonds - after all "blood is thicker than water".

For the first time in about 15-20 years the e n t i re family was gathered at my beloved cousin's wedding. I met people I had never met before or let me put it this way I didn't remember them but apparently they remembered me from when I was a baby.

People who from this day forward will mean a great deal to me. My own flesh and blood, my beloved family. I have so many things I want to write about but I'm actually quite tired after my long journey home which took me almost 12 hours in the air!

So I need to unpack and all but here is one of the thousands of gorgeous pictures of my cousin and her husband while dancing their first dance as man and wife.

To my family members on the other side of the globe I wish to say, I love you all! Thank you for this amazing week! ♥

Today's List - @ Work.

Mood: Nothing but smiles :)

Done: Lots of things, I've been quite busy at work

Plans: Work + spa treatments in the afternoon (!)

Looking at: Work's computer screen

Listening to: (Music played in the store) The soundtrack of "ABBA the Movie"

Reading: Today's morning paper (Metro)

Drinking: Water

Eating: Nothing now but lunch in a few hours

Best: Christmas is officially here!

Worst: The snow is going away this week :(

Weather: Grey sky with thin snowflakes coming down from the sky

Winter Wonderland.

Picture: Taken by me, outside my bedroom window

All I can see it snow snow snow :) Talking about a beautiful winter wonderland!

Almost done!

Yesterday went so fast! I worked almost the entire day and when I got home I started to pack my suitcase to Miami and I honestly could not believe my eyes this morning when I looked at my list and glimpsed over at the big black trunk I'm bringing when I suddenly realized that I'm almost done! Hurray :)

Normally I'm this last-minute-gal, I throw the most necessary items in a bag and I'm ready to go. At the same time I really try to plan and organize my things before big trips. This time I think I did succeed with my goal! Haha it's pathetic I know but in some way I feel good about it. Got to go now but I'll write more later!

Poetry in the morning.

Picture: Copyright © 2009 Design by S.A. All Rights Reserved.

P.S. Click to enlarge! D.S.

To the people of the world I say, good morning.

I literally have a winter wonderland outside my bedroom window and I love it! It's been snowing like crazy these last two days so who could be happier than the little girl that lives inside of me? :)

Anyway it's crazy how fast time flies, I mean I still can't believe I'm leaving on Thursday next week? Less than 4 days! Yay! More about that later, I have to get ready for work - yes I have been working 6 out of 7 days this week (guess if I'm tired?!). Have a wonderful day everybody!

Tomorrow shall be my dancing day.

Picture: Found by googling "dancing" on google

Sorry for the bad update this week, as you can imagine I've been pretty busy at work with Christmas coming closer and closer.

I'm glad that it's Friday tomorrow! My plans are to work during the day and attend this special dance event later on during the evening at a place called Gubbängen with my friend A. She said that we have to wear "colourful" clothes, apparently they have some sort of theme and I honestly don't know what to wear but I'm sure I'll come up with a good suggestion tomorrow.

Last night (Wednesday) E, another good friend of mine turned 23! So we ended up being 14 females who went out dancing at one of Stockholm's best clubs to celebrate her. We had loads of fun and I'm sure she'll remember this evening for a very long time :)

Well it's getting late and I'm going to need new energy tomorrow since it's going to be a long day! Take care and I promise that I'll try to write more during the weekend.

P.S. Don't you just love the beautiful picture as seen above? Well I know I do! Hopefully that will be me tomorrow, dancing with some hansom fellow ;) More details about that later! D.S.

Tonight's Quote.

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams."
Eleanor Roosevelt

I was just googling on the Internet, trying to find some inspiration to write tonight's post and so I came across the quote above said by Eleanor Roosevelt.

Please read the quote again and let the words get to you because they really got to me. Unfortunately I don't have the energy to continue my writing tonight (I've had a very long day you see..) but I will continue it tomorrow!

So I guess that all you have to do is to wait and see ;) Have a great day/night everyone because now I'm desperate to get some sleep and I now that my body and feet also agree :)

First Snow of 2008.

Picture: DeviantArt

I could not believe my eyes when I looked outside our dining hall's main window. It was the very first sign of this year's snow!

Now, don't let the picture above fool you, truly I wish that I had this wonderful landscape outside my window right now but I don't.

Last year the snow came very late, I think it's all because of the climate changes going on that has delayed it.

I'm just hoping that this year will be different and that I shall wake up on Christmas morning to see a white garden and not a boring green lawn.

For some reason I can't find enough words to explain..

.. how much I love Christmas! Even though we're still in mid November the stores around Stockholm are now filled with almost everything that has to do with this special holiday.

Don't get me wrong though, I honestly don't think that Christmas is all about giving/receiving gifts - no for me it's all about the spiritual feeling when family and friends come together.

I love the peaceful feeling on Christmas morning and the beautiful ceremonies they always have in my neighborhood's church. Truly it is a special feeling to sit in the same building where my parents read out their vows.

I had the same feeling today during this Sunday's ceremony in our church. Suddenly I realized that I've been missing something for quite some time, the feeling appeared when I heard the wonderful choir sing.

These last months I haven't been able to sing anything mainly because of work and because I simply haven't had the energy. Like I wrote it wasn't until today I really realized how much I've missed it.

So I made myself the promise that I have to do something about it, I need to start singing again - for the sake of my soul's happiness.

That is the one thing that can heal me no matter what happens. It's become more than a hobby, it's become a part of me and the person I am today. I'm sure we all have similar things that makes us feel "complete". Do you agree?

This is the kind of affection people warned me about.

Picture: DeviantArt

The way I still feel your presence in certain rooms even though you are not here. It's in the air that I breath and in our cold atmosphere.

The way I miss your good sense of humour and the way you always make me laugh. You remind me of what is most important in life and bring out my better half.

The way I remember each and every feature of your hansom face. It still feels like it was just yesterday that you walked away and left me with this empty space.

The way I miss your bright eyes and how one look from you could fill my heart with struggling butterflies. Truly I hope that you have been honest with me and never said any ridiculous lies.

The way I still feel your presence in certain rooms even though you are not here. For every time I think of you it feels as if you are right here with me, deep inside my heart and so the thought erase my deepest fear.

Now I know that this is the kind of affection people warned me about.

Today's List.

Mood: Happy that it's Saturday!
Done: Not much yet, I'm going to start the day after "brunch" ;)
Plans: Tidy up my room, read and relax - simply enjoy the day!
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: Piano - Tribute to Amazing R'n'B Songs
Reading: Nothing yet
Drinking: Water
Eating: Brunch soon!
Best: I've got two days off (Saturday + Sunday)
Worst: The nightmares I had last night..
Weather: Grey and windy, still quite warm! (11 ° C)

Friends Forever.

Picture: Fokus (Click to enlarge!)

I found this beautiful photo of one of my best friends, L and me from last Friday when we were out dancing! I still can't believe that I have known her for 12 years! :)

We have been friends for so long, it even feels as if she could be the beloved sister I never had. Don't get me wrong though, truly I love my brothers.

Anyway I just wanted to dedicate this post for her and the honest friendship that we share. I love you L, I hope that we shall remain Friends Forever ♥

Tonight's Quote.

1 Corinthians. 13:4-13

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
And now faith, hope, and love abide, but the greatest of these is love.

I've made a long list of book/novels that I wish to read. Surely it will take some time (I'm a slow reader..) because I really do want to understand all that is written inside and between the lines.

First out on my list is the most read book above all, namely the Bible. I've had this copy since I was confirmed for about five years ago, wow I feel old now that I read this last sentence one more time, seriously where did the time go?

Anyway and so I found this highlighted part which I think is my favorite quote of all. Read it once, read it twice and make sure to make enough room for these special words within your heart.

Carrie and Mr. Big.

Picture: HBO

I'm quite positive that almost every woman have a Mr. Big in their own life. It could be different men under certain periods of one's life, my point is there will always be a Mr. Big in the picture, whether we like it or not.

Darren Star created such amazing characters in Sex And The City. My personal opinion when it comes down to her greatest achievement in the show is how she created Carrie, her relationship to Big and the way that she made it so easy for millions of women all over the world to relate to their everyday problems that we all bump into in relationships.

Many of us females also hope to meet our own prince charming one day, a man like Aidan who wanted to give Carrie the world just to show her how much he loved her. I'm sure that many women were very upset with Carrie's behavior when she acted like she never really deserved the man. Perhaps she wasn't thinking straight?

How could she refuse a life with such a loving man and instead choose a man like Big? A man she could never trust the same way she had trusted Aidan.

In the end I understand her motives and the many reasons for why she acted the way she did. In some way I understand why she keeps going back to Big, even though she is aware of the fact that she will never be a hundred % certain whether if he will walk out of the door and leave her tomorrow morning.

I understand why she gives her heart to a man that might not be able to hold on to it. Most important above all I understand why she chooses a complicated love before an ordinary love.

I think and act the same way Carrie did. I would prefer the impossible before the possible. Even though it might bring me down I will always know that I tried my very best to fulfill my dream, and to reach for something special that will always mean a great deal to me.

Coming Up.

Finally! This week's long weekend has almost reached its end. I've been thinking about it quite a lot lately, it really is demanding to work full weekend, normally it is Saturday and Sunday but sometimes it can be Friday - Sunday which is tough, really tough. It takes so much of my positive energy!

Still next Sunday I'm actually free! As silly as it may sound I've already made plans for that day. I'm planning on visiting the church in the early morning and spend the afternoon with my family, in other words I'll be enjoying a peaceful Sunday, something to look forward right? ;)

I better try to go to bed earlier tonight for tomorrow I'm going swimming early in the morning and after that I'll be spending the day in town looking for a wonderful gift to the bride & groom who I will visit by the end of November.

Have a great day/night depending on what time it is at your place right now!

Zip it.

Picture: RevolveClothing

I've found so many cool jeweleries lately! This gorgeous silver bracelet (as seen above) is the most unique one that I've seen so far. As you can see it has been formed as a zipper, way cool since it's been so many "zipper-details" on mc-jackets, shoes and bags this fall.

My opinion is still that one should wear jeweleries that "present" who you are. It can be everything from short slogans on bracelets, necklaces to earrings. Or in this case the silver bracelet could represent your personal style.

It's the small details that make your outfit look special ;) Even though I really like this piece of jewelery I don't think I can afford paying $226 for it but hey, Christmas is coming up soon right? It could be a nice Christmas gift don't you think? ;)

Up and Go.

Good morning! I'm ready to start this Sunday so come on and bring it on ;) It's time for a shower and then I'll be ready to go! What are your plans for today?

Like I wrote yesterday I'm heading towards work and tonight we will celebrate my father since it's "Father's Day" today. I'll see you guys later! Have a great day!

Miami by Night.

Picture: DeviantArt
The time remaining for my trip to Miami is 2 weeks + 5 days. I just can't wait! If I could have it my way I would say, "Miami, please come and take me away!".

Anyway I'm exhausted from the chaotic day at work today and I really need to sleep. I've got another long day tomorrow.. Have a nice day/evening! /Sofia

In the middle of the rain.

If only you could have seen how the sky opened up last night. As I walked home alone in the middle of the night, my eyes were led through complete darkness by the stars seen from up above and their enchanted light.

Cold November rain came streaming down my face, suddenly I could not tell if the drops were mine or if they belonged to the rain? With whirling leaves in the autumn air I tried to make it through and forget about my heart's pain.

For during all this time you have been my hope, my wish and dream to follow. You give me light through darkness and through dawn, you bring out what is best in me and most important above all you have helped me deal with my inner sorrow.

The time turned 4 AM and that is when I realized that time is always so unkind. No matter how hard my heart tries I shall never be able to found a button that reads rewind.

My body started to shiver and so I started walking again. For one precious moment I wish you could have been there with me, holding my hand while staring at each other in the middle of the rain.

David Archuleta - To Be With You.

This must be the best song I've heard this week! What a talented young man he his David Archuleta.

As I was googling around on youtube this morning I found his song in the most played/showed clips of today and so I got curious and decided to check it out. I'm glad I did!

The melody of the song, his voice but most importantly the lyrics - wow, I'm speechless. I have said it many times before and this time I mean it more than ever, it feels as if he's taken the words from deep within my soul.

Trust me on this one, this is one of those songs one simply must listen to. Enjoy!

"I've been alone so many nights now
And I've been waiting for the stars to fall

I keep holding out for what I don't know
To be with you
Just to be with you

So here I am, staring at the moon tonight
Wondering how you look in this light
Maybe you're somewhere thinking about me, too
To be with you... there's nothing I wouldn't do

And I can't imagine two worlds spinning apart,
Come together eventually
And when we finally meet I'll know it's right
I'll be at the end of my restless road
But this journey, it was worth the fight
To be with you

Just to be holding you for the very first time,
Never letting go
What I wouldn't give to feel that way

Oh, to be with you
And I can't imagine two worlds spinning apart,
Come together eventually

And when you're standing here in front of me
That's when I know that God does exist
'Cause he will have answered every single prayer
To be with you

Just to be with you, yeah"

A list on a Friday.

Mood: Great after a good night's sleep
Done: Breakfast + power walk
Plans: Lunch with D, dinner with the girls and later
- we're going out dancing!
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: David Archuleta - To Be With You
Reading: Nothing yet
Drinking: Water
Eating: Breakfast (check)
Best: Mr Jon Schmidt answered my e-mail!
Talking about a great way to start a new the day :)
Worst: No nothing today, it's Friday!
Weather: Cold & cloudy

A memorable evening.

Picture: Private - D & Me.

Thank you so much D for last night! It really turned out to be a great good bye party, I hope you had a good time, at least so did I!

The time you have been waiting for quite some time has finally come, I wish you all the best on your two year long journey, I'll be writing many letters to you so don't worry ;)

Tagged V.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?
Silence. I would probably not be able to say anything because of all the pain I would be feeling inside. While standing there, between four eyes, my heart would probably try to ask him the simple yet so difficult question in complete silence, “why?” …

2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
I have far too many dreams so it’s not fair to say that I can only have one of them come true! I wish that scientists/doctors could come up with a medicine to cure cancer patients. Another dream is to experience and perhaps live the American dream. I wish that my family and friends shall have a good and healthy life because in the end that’s all that really matters.

3. Do you believe in fate?
Yes I do.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Wow now that is a large sum. I would donate a large amount of it to charity or perhaps to an organization such as UNICEF where I know that my money would be used for good matters.
The rest of what is left I would use to secure the lives of my family members and the generations to come by placing them in a fond or something that could make the money “grow”.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
That’s how it’s supposed to be isn’t it? I mean people often say that one should get married with your best friend, your soul mate or your ying/yang, the one who shall be your companion throughout life on earth and the next life in heaven. It should be something special, not only shall he/she be your best friend obviously one needs to be attracted to the person as well!

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
I’m sorry but I just can’t make up my mind on this one. First of all I have always loved to love other people by showing them how much I care by simply just being there. It gives me joy when I can make someone that I love happy. Truly, it can make my day!

Secondly being loved by someone is also another great feeling that simply can’t be described but must be experienced in order to understand the feeling and what it signifies. To hear those three magic words “I love you” from someone you love and knowing the meaning behind them it’s definitely one of the best feelings one could possibly ever experience!

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
I’m one of those classic romantic gals and so I shall answer an entire lifetime. For I believe that there is a man/woman out there for each and one of us to find. Sometimes it just takes a while so one must wait patiently for that day to come. I know I’ll be waiting here for my man right under the sun.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
All I want is for him to be happy. If he finds his fortune with someone else I shall respect him, his decision and his lucky one. I would never put up a fight to try to “win” him back.

9. If you'd like to act with someone, who will it be? The person you love or an actress/actor?
I have to say an actor. This might be wishful thinking but if I could a famous actor it would have been Johnny Depp, he’s amazing! :)

10. What takes you down the fastest?
When people try to act as if they are listening to the things you are saying when they never really do. Also when people take you for granted whereas they “expect” you to do certain things that you might have done for a long time, as if it should be some kind of “routine”.

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
10 years, it seems so far away. Hopefully I’ll be working with something that will give me joy throughout my everyday-life. I’m an adventurous person so I would love to have traveled and to have seen more fantastic places around the world. Another goal is to get a scuba diving certificate, preferably before I’ll turn 30!

I’m also thinking about family, with a bit of luck I’ll be married to the best guy in the world and together we shall raise at least three children but what is most important above all is that we all remain healthy and share happiness together. Family values have always been important to me.

12. What’s your fear?
To be insufficient and white masks, I know that it is a childish fear but I’ve had it since I saw the horrible “Halloween” movies.

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Diana – the sweetest and most caring girl I have ever met. With a heart as big as the ocean she has room for not only you and me but she could probably have room for an entire nation.

Along with a bright and talented mind she knows how to enjoy life. This I shall say in a modest way for truly I admire her in every possible way and I know that we can expect great things from her and that she will make an important contribution on day.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
As cheesy this might sound I have to say married but poor. For I have learnt that money cannot buy you happiness, it must come from deep inside. If you are married to someone that you truly and deeply love and the person loves you back, no money in the world could ever replace that.

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?
Pray that it’s going to be a good day.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
Yes, Always.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
I read Diana’s answer to this question and I simply have to borrow her answer because I couldn’t possibly have said it better myself, I agree 100 %.

“I don't think you can fall in love with two people simultaneously, but you can probably feel an attraction towards two people simultaneously, in which case, I'd chose the one I was the most attracted to.”

18. Would you forgive and forget, no matter how horrible a thing someone has done?
This is probably the most difficult question of all. It really depends on the situation but normally I do try to forgive the person. In some cases one can forget the person but the scar will still be there and remind me of it. In the end, I’d still like to see myself a forgiving person at least that is how I want and try to be.

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
Both works for me still, I think I’m happier in a relationship. Even though people say that Aquarius are “independent” and have difficulty to commit that is not true in my case.

20. I tag: (You have to tag 6 people)

4 should be enough :P

Dexter

Emma

Erik

Kevin

A Historic Victory.

Picture: Barack Obama

America has spoken and so the winning candidate of 2008's Presidential election in the United States is Barack Obama. I have watched so many clips all morning of people crying when he held his winning speech in Chicago last night.

America has turned the page and is now looking forward to a new start and as Obama's winning sloagan reads "Change Can Happen". We'll see what happens next, how Barack Obama will lead his country and fellow citizens towards a more positive future than they have had recently.

One can only hope that America did choose the right man for this job. I still believe that Obama might be a new and fresh breeze for the politics of America and for the changes that the country needs.

United States presidential election of 2008.

I'm actually going to bed within a few minutes, the reason is because I'm planning on waking up early tomorrow - I'll be waiting for the moment of truth when the media will announce which presidential candidate won the US election of 2008. According to Realclearpolitics Obama is leading the election with 52,1 % while McCain has 44,5 % of the votes so far.

In our Swedish media journalists have been talking so much about Obama and the fact that he will win the election but I'm not sure. Even though Obama has received a lot more "positive" attention through his campaign in the media McCain is still on the hook and it seems like he's got a pretty good chance to win this election too.

I honestly don't know what will happen only time will tell. One thing I do know is that this election stands for a great change in the American politics.

Another important issue one must not forget is whoever of these two candidates who will win this election, the result of it will in fact affect not only the American people but also people worldwide since America is one of the biggest and most powerful nations in the world. I will be very anxious tomorrow morning when I shall turn on the TV to hear the news.

Like I said, we'll see what happens tomorrow. I hope all of you American citizens have voted today! For I really think that it is time to make a change.

Ice cream but in plastic?

Pictures: Kyssjohanna

Ice cream anyone? Haha I just saw these gorgeous necklaces at one of my favourite web stores here in Sweden called Kyssjohanna. You can find many famous brands there among them CC Skye, Disney Couture, Dogeared, One of a Kind etc.

Anyway the necklaces as seen above are adorable and I must say they are a precious keeper if you're a big fan of ice cream - like myself :P Honestly when I first saw them I wanted to eat them! Still that might be a problem since they're made out of plastic. I just think it was a great and creative idea!

Talking about receiving a "personal gift" that is if any family member/friend would like to give it to me haha - for Christmas perhaps? What do you think of it? Would you wear one of them? I can also say that the brand Q-Pot actually is from Japan and that they have made different rings and other cute necklaces formed in different combinations/colours.

Emotional Music.

There are times when the lyrics of a song simply cannot make such a powerful impression like a simple melody. For my personal favorite has and always will be the simplicity in the sound coming from a piano where the famous musician Mr Jon Schmidt's melodies has come to mean a great deal to me.

There have been difficult times when I thought my eyes would burst into a big sea, luckily his music became my greatest therapy. The best part is that it did not only help me but also the other members within my family.

For every time I listen to one of his songs my heart opens up and is filled with peace and inner harmony. The fact that my soul carries a big smile is reflected in my eyes and the feeling is similar to the one I had the very first time I sat on a chocolate brown little pony.

I wish that you could have seen my face that day for my face showed nothing but smiles. Unfortunately it was a short ride, I could have continued for at least another two miles.

I have also had days when I have experienced nothing but sunshine and where his music most certainly has made my day. Songs such as "All of me" and "Nativity" makes me feel different in an almost ridiculous way.

They give me hope when there is none, I don't know what else I could say. It even feels as if I know them by heart by now after all I have been listening to these beautiful songs since 2007 and especially during May.

If you have one minute or two please listen to a wonderful melody that will fill your heart with joy. Truly, if only I could go back in time I wish I could have convinced my parents more to buy a piano, I would have exchanged it with any toy.

On a beautiful Day.

Picture: DeviantArt

You may call me crazy for I know it's been almost two years since you went away. Still, the picture of you inside my mind has remained clear, it even feels like it was taken just yesterday.

For it is the most hansom picture my eyes have ever beheld. Truth must be told, it wasn't the right time which is why I tried to forget about my feelings and when I realized it wasn't possible I fled.

Still, I haven't been able to get you out of my mind. You are unique just like an Aquemarine and my most precious treasure that took me so many years to find.

No matter the physical distance between us you have and always will be right here with me deep inside my heart. Please, don't stop reading for here comes my favourite part.

You may gain weight, colour your hair, get a tattoo or even change your name. No matter your appearance, in my eyes you will always remain the same.

You are the one person who can always make me laugh. The one person who always brings out my better half.

Truly you have inspired me in so many ways and helped me become the woman I am today. I light a candle, close my eyes and so I pray.

Hoping that the words I said earlier today won't cause any confusion. What if this is just another dream where you are nothing but a fantastic illusion?

No matter what time will show I shall always remain grateful. For the sunlight you brought into my life and a good reason to remain faithful.

You may call me crazy for I know it's been almost two years since you went away. Through endless days and endless nights I shall keep my spirits up and long for that moment when we shall meet again, this I know for certain it will definitely take place on a beautiful day.