Friday 31 October 2008

Coldplay - The Hardest Part.


Most Played Coldplay Song

And the hardest part
Was letting go, not taking part
Was the hardest part

And the strangest thing
Was waiting for that bell to ring
It was the strangest start

I could feel it go down
Bittersweet, I could taste in my mouth
Silver lining the cloud
Oh and I
I wish that I could work it out

And the hardest part
Was letting go, not taking part
You really broke my heart

And I tried to sing
But I couldn’t think of anything
And that was the hardest part

I could feel it go down
You left the sweetest taste in my mouth
You're a silver lining the clouds
Oh and I
Oh and I
I wonder what it’s all about
I wonder what it’s all about

Everything I know is wrong
Everything I do, it's just comes undone
And everything is torn apart

Oh and it’s the hardest part
That’s the hardest part
Yeah that’s the hardest part
That’s the hardest part

Quantum of Solace - James Bond.

I'm sure that I have said it many times before and it will probably never change. I'm talking about the fact of how much I love Fridays, my favourite day of the week :)

I spent most of the day at work as usual but later in the afternoon I went to see the brand new James Bond movie called "Quantum of Solace" with Daniel Craig as James Bond.

It was incredibly well done and it contained many cool action scenes. As many times before the chosen vehicle for this special agent was a gorgeous metallic grey Aston Martin DBS, I also just read that 7 (!) Austin Martin DBS models were destroyed during their filming, my opinion is "what a waste of such beautiful cars!".

Anyway I think you should really go and see it if you haven't seen it yet! Prepare yourselves for a great adventure and let Mr. Bond take the lead! ;)

Tuesday 28 October 2008

Harper's Bazaar meets Harry Potter.

Pictures: Harper's Bazaar
I just saw these gorgeous pictures of Emma Watson in the October number of Harper's Bazaar. She looks amazing!

I can't help but feeling so inspired by seeing her in so many fantastic dresses all created by today's most popular designers. Besides, I'm amazed over the beautiful rooms that all reminds me of the mysterious halls at
Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry as seen in the famous movies about Harry Potter and his friends.

I certainly wouldn't mind being in her clothes in these spectacular pictures! :) Talking about fantastic dresses, my dress that I'm going to wear at my cousine's wedding is finally finished and I have it hanging here in my room! I'll try to take a picture of it later.



Bad way to start a new day.

I don't know why I keep having all of these nightmares, night after night. It really freaks me out. Besides it's an awful and bad way to start a new day.

Anyway I better try to find some positive energy to manage through this terrible Tuesday. It's been raining all morning and it's probably cold outside. I better get ready, I've got a meeting at 1 PM sharp. Have a great day everyone!

Monday 27 October 2008

Don't forget to blow out your candle.

Picture: DeviantArt

No more words will be said tonight, except for good night, sleep tight. And so she blows out her candle light.

Dreams are fragile and so is glass.

I found her sitting in a corner surrounded by small pieces of broken glass. I tried to get through to her but I simply could not pass.

Silver tears came streaming down her face. Where were the smiling eyes she always used to have and what had happened to her glowing grace?

Her jar had been broken down into pieces and had never contained anything but it was a symbol for her many childhood dreams. For she had placed each and every thought inside of it and now it was broken because she had realized that life does not turn out to be the way it seems.

All her hope was gone. She had been left there all alone. All she wanted was to give you a call but she never dared to pick up her phone.

After all she thought she had finally seen some clarity. Still something went wrong, perhaps it had been decided long time ago that she should stay and work for charity.

While her heart wanted to be somewhere else her physical body had to stay at another place. Life truly turned out to be a lot more than just a complicated maze.

How could life turn out to be so unfair after all? Being hopeful and perhaps a bit naive just led her right into another great disappointment and yet another deep fall.

The searching is finally over.

Picture: Google

Yes I have found it! The perfect dress to wear to my cousin's wedding in late November. After spending many hours of searching my mom and I finally found ourselves two perfect gowns today.

They are drop dead gorgeous! Unfortunately I didn't have enough battery on my cellphone so I couldn't take a photo but there were a few things that needed to be corrected so I'll take one when I'll go and get it when it's finished.

This was the fifth store we visited and to be honest this was the best store. I simply don't understand why they have so weird gowns here in Stockholm? They look like you are going to wear them in some exotic paradise in the strangest colors, styles etc.

All I can say is that we (my mom and I) managed to find two rather classic models and in good colors. So I guess I should take out my list - Gown for the wedding (check!) ;)

Sunday 26 October 2008

The presence of an angel.

The presence of an angel can be described like the warm feeling of sunbeams lightening up your face at dawn. The presence of an angel can be described like a safe embrace and that is when you realize that the fear you had is gone.

For angels are the miracles of our time. Let them remind you how faith in God can lead to forgiveness throughout a small everyday crime.

A guarding angel shall never leave your side. I know so for I have felt his presence all those endless nights that I have stayed up and cried.

Let them lighten up your candle of hope that is hidden deep within your soul. If every man and woman on earth would believe in angels I shall think that we would get rid of heavy burdens that creates a empty black hole.

The presence of an angel can be described like the raspberry-red colored clouds seen on a warm sunset in may. The presence of an angel can be described like a miracle sent from above, for miracles still take place, no matter what angels shall always be there for you by having the right words of what to say.

Jon Schmidt & Neal Middleton - I Do.


Now that I'm going to attend my cousins wedding my mom and I have been looking at some many wonderful pictures of dresses and of everything that comes along with it. One simply cannot help than to get carried away and start dreaming of this special day.

While I was googling on youtube I found this new song. I've become a big fan of the fantastic piano player Jon Schmidt and here's on of his songs where he plays and Neal Middleton sings the beautiful and typical wedding song called "I Do". Besides, this is my confession, I couldn't stop crying as I kept listening to the beautiful song.

"Last night, in the quiet
when our day was through
I listened, to you sleeping
and stayed awake by you
and softly, through the evening
there I spoke your name
and told you, all the feelings
I've had

I sometimes, see you sitting
by the window in the hall
or laughing, with the children
at the little things you saw
and lately, I've been wondering
if it's all I can do
to hold you and to show you
I do

My promise is forever with you

And lately, I've been wondering
if it's all I can do my promise
is forever with you

My promise is forever
"I do."

Did I tell you what date it is today?

In a weird way it feels strange to work on Sundays. Mainly because it's supposed to be the one day every week that you rest the Bible says. At the same time it's also relaxing to work on Sundays.

Saturdays are often chaotic, in other words there too many things to do. But on this last day of the week it often feels as if there is a thin veil of tranquility in the air and I must say, I like it.

Still it's sad that I miss going to church, the only place where my heart always find peace. Instead I've planned to pay a little visit there, tomorrow morning. To sit there for maybe half an hour and pray. I think my heart needs it right now.

Anyway, when it comes to special dates I'm the biggest geek of them all! :) Therefor the title of this post. I'm born on January 26th and so today's date is actually October 26 which means that I'm 20 years and 9 months today! So I'm saying Happy Birthday to myself.

I'm sure most people would find this to be really silly.. Well I've done this to myself ever since I was a little girl and I have no plans to stop. It brings out the little girl inside of me you see ;)

I know I've said it before but truly I believe in these small things that brings a little more joy to our everyday life. For I think it's the best feeling in the world. Those times when I have a great smile on my face.

There are couples everywhere.

Picture: Fadedyouth

One can see them everywhere. Holding hands while walking along the streets of Stockholm. On the bus. On the subway.

Don't get me wrong though, I really do think it's cute when couples show that they're in love by simply holding their hands etc but there is one thing that annoys me and that's when couples cross the line and make out (not in a sweet tender way by giving the other person a kiss but instead add a little more drama to it by simply acting more "wild" towards each other while there are other people in the area/room) in public places.

One couple that manage to keep a low profile is the adorable Keira Knightley and her boyfriend Rupert Friend, (see picture above) photograph taken by the paparazzi while they were in NY. Don't they look beautiful together? :)

Thursday 23 October 2008

Thoughts on a Thursday.

I never thought one could be so tired like I'm feeling today. Let's just say it's been a very long Thursday. (I didn't come home until 9 PM!)

We received the "Christmas/New Year's Eve - package" (as I'd like to call it) only a few weeks ago and that's what we're selling right now. Weird is it not? To be thinking of what to wear on those two special occasions and remember we're still in October! Anyway it's going good for our company despite of the difficult times that we're in so I won't complain.

I was just reminded earlier today when I received an email from L and by reading E's blog that Halloween is coming up soon, could it even be next week? I'm not sure. It's been so much lately that I haven't even noticed it in my calendar.

Still as I've mentioned before I've never been a big fan of Halloween so my guess is that I won't do anything speical besides maybe just maybe go to this Halloween-party that one of my friends is throwing. We'll see what happens.

Have you made any plans for your Halloween? I just hate the fact that people will probably try to scare me even more than they usually do since most of my friends/family know that I'm easily frightened. I just wish I wasn't.

Bride Wars.

It appears to me that there are many great new films on their way from Hollywood to our cinemas! "Bride Wars" featuring Kate Hudson and Anne Hathaway seems to be a great comedy which I would love to see!

Unfortunately it won't have its premiere until January 2009 so I guess I'll just have to wait but after seeing the trailer above I just know that it will be worth seeing it! :)

Sorry guys but it seems to me that it's a "chick-film" so unless you don't want to make your girlfriend happy I'm sure that there will be plenty of other action movies coming up soon as well!

It's Thursday and here's yet another list.

Mood: Nothing but smiles
Done: Breakfast + powerwalk
Plans: Work, work, work.
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: Phil Collins - Son of a Man
Reading: Nothing yet
Drinking: Milk
Eating: Breakfast (check)
Best:
I'm going out dancing tomorrow!!

Worst: I've got a long weekend in front of me.. (work)
Weather: Blue sky and nothing but sunshine!

Tuesday 21 October 2008

Dreadful Dilemma.

Picture: Sorry but I don't remember where I found it but it was somewhere on the Internet..

I found this picture several months ago on the Internet. My first reaction was that I started to laugh and I thought "poor guy, what's he going to do next?".

Then I realized the dangerous situation he'd be in if this picture was real (I most certainly hope that it's fake!). So I asked myself the question, "what would I have done if it had been me sitting there in the middle of nowhere?".

I would probably have gotten so terrified that I would have panicked. Ever since I saw those Shark movies when I was a little girl I've always been afraid of sharks and dark waters.

That's one phobia that I've had for many years and still haven't been able to over win. I'm just curious, what would you have done if you were in this guy's situation?

Maybe just started to paddle really fast? Or would you say a prayer hoping that this one would not be your very last..? Talking about a dreadful dilemma.

Monday 20 October 2008

A poem that has no name.

I lay awake at night, thinking and wishing that you were here. Painful memories keep me awake and reminds me of my deepest fear.

I thought I was safe and that they would always protect me. I thought I could surpress all my feelings and that this old ghost would dissapear and let me be.

Still I keep thinking, where were they on that particular day? I was left alone, terrified and I didn't understand what I had done wrong to deserve to be treated this way?

The number of times that I let them down, perhaps I did deserve it after all? Two tired eyes keep starring at a white wall, nothing left to say, nothing else but admitting that without you I always feel so small.

I tought myself to be strong and to be independent. Through time I have learnt more about air, my inner element.

Like the Aquarius I shall always remain. In my nature the positive atmosphere shall always be the same.

No matter what happened in the past I have been given new hope at last. Thank you for lightening up my evening so fast and for helping me put this memory in the past.

Bad days will come and bad days will go. At least my mother told me so.

I lay awake tonight, thinking and knowing that you will always be here. For no matter the distance, in my heart you will always be near.

Most Played Song.

Picture: DeviantArt

Evanescence - My Immortal

"I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along..."

Today's List.

Mood: Positive
Done: Power walk + breakfast
Plans: Mother and daughter Monday - my mom and I will spend the day together and go searching for the perfect dresses which we will wear on my cousin's wedding!
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: Jessie Baylin - Was I on your mind
Reading: Today's morning paper (DN)
Drinking: Nothing yet
Eating: Breakfast (check)
Best:
It's Monday and there is no sign of anxiety (?) !

Worst: - No negative thoughts today hurray! :)
Weather: Cold + grey + windy = Warm clothes today

Update: I just realized that this was my 900th post! Yay!

Sunday 19 October 2008

Missing Link.

Picture: DeviantArt

Finally I think I have found the missing link..
Finally I have found an answer to my question,
or at least that is what I think..

Memories from a beautiful wedding.

You should have seen all the people's faces as she entered the beautifully decorated room. Better yet, you should have seen the nervous, in a good way of course and happy eyes of the hansom groom.

There she was, his beautiful and breathtaking bride. Slowly she started walking while the piano kept playing emotional tunes and so within the next minute she was standing there with pride, right by his side.

One could feel the positive atmosphere in the room it was like seeing the sun set in a late afternoon. Magic sparkles came out as crystal tears from the bride's eyes and so she realized that this special moment would unfortunately end quite soon.

Hand in hand they stood in front of each other. His best man stood right beside him well prepared with the golden rings and it was no surprise that he had chosen his older brother.

They read their vows and only a few minutes later the priest had pronounced them man and wife. This is when the groom was allowed to kiss the bride.

Truly, it was a beautiful wedding and I remember every detail like it was yesterday. These are all the feelings one hope one will feel on this special day. I would never have it any other way..

Friday 17 October 2008

Memories from Taizé Autumn ´07.

Picture: Don't know who took it? But it's a picture where one can see me and Emma in the middle of it - Memories from Taizé ´07

Hope you had a great trip to Paris sweetie and that you could enjoy all the lovely things once again just like we did last year.

I honestly miss that trip and I wish we could have done a similar one again. I guess all I needed to say is that I truly miss you my beloved friend

Horrible Headache.

My entire body is exhausted after all hard work that I had to do today. This ended in a horrible headache :(

Luckily I found something earlier today on my way towards work, a little something that I've been waiting for from H&M. It's to dark to take a picture of it now so I think I'll do it tomorrow morning instead, hope you don't mind! ;)

I think I should try to get some sleep and hope that this headache will be gone in the morning. Sleep well dear ones! Love /S

The best hairsalon in Stockholm.

Picture: Collage made by me, pictures from Unik.

I was so happy yesterday when I called Karin, probably the best hairdresser I've ever been to, at the hair salon Unik in Stockholm. I haven't been there for a few months and so I decided to give her a call to make a new appointment before the big wedding in Miami.

I think most women would agree when I say that it's difficult to find a good hairdresser in a big city such as Stockholm. It's a big jungle out there! Luckily Karin's good friend Rebecca wrote about the salon in her blog and that's when I decided I should it give it a try.

I'm so happy that I did because now I'm stuck, I love that place and they are always so kind to you throughout the entire visit. So if you're struggling with your "old" hairdresser and feel like trying something new I can really recommend this place, they're really professional and the entire staff are great - still Karin's the best of course! ;)

I better be going now, have a great day!

Today's List.

Mood: Creative!
Done: So far not much, I ate breakfast for about an hour ago
Plans: Work between 14-19, Gossip Girl marathon with my brother :)
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: New single! Chris Brown feat. Keri Hilson "Superhuman"
Reading: Nothing yet but I will as soon as I get on the train towards the city!
Drinking: Water
Eating: I just had breakfast not even want to think about lunch yet!
Best:
It's Friday! I've always loved Fridays..

Worst: I've got to work all weekend :(
Weather: Sunny for once! (It was pouring down yesterday!)

Thursday 16 October 2008

Sweet little Suri.


Picture: Sweet little Suri

I can't believe that Katie Holmes and Tom Cruise's little girl Suri's already turned 2 years old. The first picture as seen above was taken when she was only a few months old.

I love both pictures but to see the two pretty ladies smile towards each other like they do in this picture, well let's just say that it make my heart melt. It's the perfect mother and daughter moment.

Wednesday 15 October 2008

It can only get better.

These last months of 2008 turned out to be a lot better than what I had expected. And it's keeps getting better and better for each day!

Did I mention that I will actually be celebrating Thanks Giving this year? Well, I most certainly will now that I will be arriving at Miami airport on the 27th of November. Only a few days later I will also attend my beloved cousin's wedding!

Not to mention the place where I'm going to celebrate New Year's Eve! But I won't tell you where, at least not yet ;) But I promise I'll tell you soon! I better try to get some sleep. Sweet dreams!

Tuesday 14 October 2008

Why do people move to NY? To fall in love.

Picture: DeviantArt - One day I shall walk up those magic stairs..

- I had a great time tonight she said with an anxious voice as she was standing in front of him, starring into those deep blue eyes and feeling how her knees got weaker and weaker..


He placed her small hands in his and smiled the greatest smile she'd seen during the entire night. Then suddenly he bent forward, kissed her on the forehead and said with a gentle voice,


- Thank you for making my evening so special. Now this is where I will leave you tonight, outside your front door for now I can go home and sleep knowing that you did come home safely.


She blushed and ran away with her eyes from his to get caught starring at their hands instead. All her heart wanted this particular moment was to hold him. And to never let go..


- Good night she said as she reached up to his face, standing on her little toes to give him a gentle kiss on his cheek.


He gave her the same phrase back and began his walk home, feeling good and safe inside now that he knew that she had come home safely.


From distance she saw how he walked away and slowly vanished in the shadow's of the night. She smiled to herself. Never had she felt so happy while walking up these stairs.

She knew she would never regret her big decision to come and move to NY. It's just like they say when people ask you why you decided to move to NY? To fall in love.
It's as easy as that.

Another day. Another list.

Mood: Happy :)
Done: Organized the huge pile of papers on my desk
Plans: Finish writing my letter and go grocery-shopping with my mom
Looking at: My laptop's screen
Listening to: 6-year old Emily Bear play the piano, could she be the next Mozart?
Reading: Nothing yet but I'll soon continue my reading of Khaled Hosseini's "The Kite Runner"
Drinking: Water
Eating: I will be having lunch soon and afterwards I think I'll have one of dad's new baked muffins!
Best: I'm having another day off!
Worst: I skipped my power-walk this morning.. :( I was too tired to get up caused by bad dreams from last night..
Weather: Sunny yet windy

Sunday 12 October 2008

I loved you from the very start.

Picture: Private - E, me & B.

I honestly don't know what I would do without you guys. No one knows me better than the way you two do. I simply can't imagine a life without you and the thought of loosing you makes me cry.

I love you with all my heart and soul. I hope we'll stay together and take good care of each other even when we grow old. You will always have my love /S

Golden Compass.

A lonely heart is lost in this world thinking where is the love? With nothing else but a golden compass to guide her she tries to find her own path by searching for a free white dove.

The arrow points at north and so she follows the cool breezes. Deceived yet again by the whispering winter who leaves her with a troublesome cold and so she sneezes.

In the morning light she sees how the arrow points towards the south. Spiritual spring takes her onto its wide wings and brings back that precious laughter coming from an angel's mouth.

Mislead once again by the foolish flowers and yet not a sign of the precious dove. Still thinking where is her love?

By the end of the enchanted evening she sees how the arrow points at east. The sweet summer fairy celebrates her arrival with a great feast.

Still nothing seems to feel right. A lonely heart who stays awake night after night.

Scared yet hopeful she keeps praying for this special day when everything will work. She's tired of stumbling around feeling like such a dum dork.

While the lonely heart takes a beat she thinks that even though she is frightened she is still determined to give it one last try. No more stupidity, no more of this nonsense of being shy.

The arrow points towards the west. With a light of hope in her hand she flies above an endless ocean, hoping that this last journey might give the heart some rest.

Along with the golden compass that lies in her little hand she has come to find her love. She will go on forever until she will find her free white dove.

P.S. This was my 888th post! :) D.S.

Fishing for a Dream.

Picture: Visit Maine

Good morning! It's a beautiful Sunday, a bit windy but the sun is up and all I can see is nothing but a blue sky! Last fun was awesome. I feel so bad for my feet since we kept dancing for so many hours so next up is a shower and a well needed foot massage!


Anyway my plans for today is as the title says to go fishing with one of my friends from the northern parts of Sweden, Umeå to be more specific. So it will be fun!

Hopefully I'll catch something if not it will surely be a good day out in the sun and the thought of getting some fresh air is really tempting I must say :)
Anyway I better get ready! I wish you all a great day/night depending on the time at your place!

Saturday 11 October 2008

Let's get this party started!

Finally Saturday and my dear A turns 25! Happy Birthday love! I'm sure we're going to have so much fun tonight. I still haven't decided what to wear..

I'll probably end up trying on 1000 different outfits before I'll decide for the LBD or something. We'll see. What are your plans for tonight? :)

Friday 10 October 2008

When Two Become One.

Picture: Private - A & C - Collage made by me

Before I shall call it the night I thought I'd might just write a few sentences dedicated to my beloved cousin C and her A by telling them how happy I am for these two lovebirds and that they have finally set a date for their amazing wedding to come!

Congratulations to you both! All I'm hoping for right now is that I'll be able to get some time off from work in late November so that I can come and join you and the rest of the "familia" and to celebrate this special day, just like the Spice Girls used to sing "When Two Become One"..

The countdown has begun.

2 months and 14 days left. For those of you who have read my blog previously, I'm sure you've learnt how much I love Christmas! :) And so this is what the "countdown" is all about.

I read in the newspaper that Christmas at IKEA has already begun! So my plan is to convince my mom for us two to go some time next week. I simply can't wait to see what themes they've chosen for this year's Christmas Eve.

I never listen to Christmas music during the spring/summer (I know that some people do..) but instead I normally start during the autumn.

Therefore while my brother and I were out with our family's car
earlier today we listened to some classic Christmas songs and that's when I turned towards him and said,

"I honestly can't wait for this year's Christmas, I have the feeling that it's going to be one of the best ever". And so we kept driving along the road, listening to this special song.

Tuesday 7 October 2008

Autumn ´08


Pictures: Autumn ´08 - Taken by me

The other day I spent almost an entire day all by myself outdoors. As you can see on the pictures above the weather simply couldn't have been better!

As I kept walking on the small woodland path I could see redcoloured and whirling leaves collect at my feet. What a great feeling it was to welcome the Autumn of 2008.. :)

I hope we shall have more similar days where one can stay outside, enjoy the warm beams from the sunlight and spend time with the people you care about

Sunday 5 October 2008

Nothing but the Truth.

The truth is you always make me smile so easily. I simply don't know how you do it but one thing is for certain, you should be proud to have this special ability.

The truth is I love the way you always make me laugh. In this late hour I continue my writing while listening to Keith Urban's most lovable song "You're my better half".

The truth is that I wish I could be somewhere near. I still can't believe it's been so many days, weeks, months yes more than a year.

The truth is my thoughts are with you day and night. In my prayers, in my sleep, every evening but especially in the morning light.

The truth is I love the sound of rain outide my bedroom window. At times like these when I miss you the most I can always find comfort in my soft pillow..

Busy weekend.

Picture: DeviantArt

It's crazy how fast the days pass us by. I still can't believe that we're already in October? Time really does fly.

Anyway it's been a long weekend full of all different kinds of activities = no time to blog. Sorry for that. Besides, I'm afraid that I'm getting sick (!) :( ..

My throat felt so sore while I was working this Saturday and I had an awful headache on the evening. Two of my colleagues at work have been sick this week which is why I had to work extra Friday, Saturday and Sunday.

Let's just hope it's just a small thing that will go away tomorrow or the day after that..

Thursday 2 October 2008

Read this. Remember it. Today and tomorrow.

"Many people die with their music still in them. Why is this so? Too often it is because they are always getting ready to live. Before they know it, time runs out." Oliver Wendell Holmes

Here's yet another favourite quote of mine. The message reminds me a bit of another famous latin quote "Carpe Diem" which means "Size the Day" and I must say that I really do try to think of these wise words every morning I wake up, to be ready to start a new day.

In that way one can carry them throughout the entire day and so I did during this entire Thursday. Isn't it amazing how a short sentence like the one above can have such a great impact on so many people? This was tonight's deepest thought :)

I hope you all had a great day!