Feeling so much better.

I haven't felt this good in ages. It has taken me a lot of time and energy to write down all the thoughts I've had the last couple of months, you should see all the pages.

I haven't felt this good since you were here. Back then I was happy because you were near.

Something clicked inside of me today. Something I haven't felt since you went away in May.

For the very first time I felt truly happiness because I felt so blessed to have such wonderful people in my life. I felt so warm inside so I'm no longer cold as ice.

Still the fact of me missing you hasn't changed. Somehow it feels as if I have aged?

All I can say is that my heart and soul feels so much better now. It must have healed in some magic way today and to be honest I don't know how.

I'm just glad it did and the fact that I've become so much stronger inside. I guess I must have found my heart's guide.

I just wanted to let you know that I'm feeling so much better right now. As I was walking home from the train something inside of me just said "wow".

I'm sorry if I have been impatient or if I have insisted on far too many things that has happened between you and me. I just miss you that's all so I guess you finally see.

There's a new day tomorrow so I better try and get some sleep. Here we go I am going to start counting let's see one, two, three ... sheep.